Discouraged…

Soooooooo I’m feeling pretty bad for myself right now…. I keep applying for a job at St. Mary’s and get turned down…hell I applied for a job where a friend of mine worked and got turned down… yet my sister in law applies at St. Mary’s and get’s an interview…I don’t know what I am doing in my life or where I am going…My hubby keeps telling me to go for the photography thing but that’s not going to work in this area…too many people going for that now a days and I don’t feel like I am THAT great! I am however going to do a wedding in March next year for a friend of ours and I am SUPER nervous for that… I need to stop spending so much and start saving… come up with some sort of plan. I’m using my small checks now when I get paid to pay off Paul’s car so that will be a couple hundred extra for us every month… I just don’t know what I’m doing and would like a good job, wish the photography thing would work out too…that would be the best of both worlds…