08/08/2012

I think I might know what my problem is… besides the fact that we have 2 extra people living here and our space is limited now… I have no time for things and when I do, I don’t want to do them because I am tired. There is SO much I want to do to this house and decorate it and get it the way I want but I feel so damn unorganized! Even worse than I ever have before. I’d like to start getting things to keep on top of things better but right now it’s too hard with people living with us, not so much my mother in law but his grandma was in the room where we have our office stuff. It’ll be nice to have both rooms back so we can use my mother in law’s room as a guest room. I’d like to get new linnen and a new bed and such and get stuff to organize our laundry room better, get a new stove and fridge you know cause we haven’t had this stuff yet and this house is OURS. We have WAY too much stuff and I’m thinking of downsizing my daughter’s stuff too. It’s hard cause we’re only limited to so much that we can do right now…. Anyways I have a little energy today so I think I’m gonna get cracking on stuff… I have to make something for bible study today, I’m REALLY gonna try cracking down on myself and get things done around here more…. cleaning and such… I KNOW I need a new job once Madison starts school, I need to start making more money so we can afford the things we want in life. A family vacation would be nice next year, trying to build our savings back up again ugh and HOPING we don’t owe in taxes next year… 

My husband said he was worried about me, that my mood shifts so much, he’s worried I am going to have a nervous breakdown at any minute… sometimes I feel like I am…