10/20/2020

I received some devastating news this morning at 6:46 that my step uncle Eddie passed away at 6:36…. <- My stepdad is the one that called me and told me that my step uncle had passed away…. I talked to a counselor today and she explained to me that I had a mental nervous breakdown and that I need to be watched for a few days because I was telling her what I was going through and what I have been through in the past…. <- The FMRS Crisis Unit is going to be calling and checking on me for the next few days to make sure that I am doing okay and if I need to go to the Crisis Unit then they will have a bed for me…. Normally I am the strong one but this time I couldn’t be the strong one for the family…. Judy has been nagging at me again trying to get me to do everything for her daughter…. Yesterday Judy nagged me so much that I finally gave in went and got her daughter Talena and the three boys…. I just need a break from everyone and it has gotten so bad here lately that if I try to ignore Judy’s phone calls she just keeps calling my phone until I answer…. She really doesn’t need to be bothering me because I already have enough to deal with and then I have to help make the arrangements tomorrow for my step uncle…. I am just ready to shut my phone off and take a few days for myself away from everyone so I can regather my thoughts…. All of the stress that Judy and Talena are putting me through is really pushing me over the edge because I have already had a mental nervous breakdown and if they don’t stop then I will have another one and I really don’t need that because I am really trying to keep my job and trying not to snap on them…. I have had enough of the both of them and I am going to tell Judy tomorrow when she calls (because I know for sure that she is going to call me) that I have already had a mental nervous breakdown to the point that I was almost put in the Crisis Unit at FMRS and if the s*** doesn’t stop with her always trying to drag me into something between her and my fiance Bobby and her always putting me down by saying that I am not good enough to do something then I am going to personally block her and then I am going to block her out of Bobby’s life too because all she has done for the past 2 and 1/2 years is tried to come between me and Bobby and I am getting fed up really fast with that s***…. I just need to break away from Judy for good and tell her to have a nice life because I am done…. I am tired of her always downing my daddy <- the man is dead leave the past in the past and I am sick of her talking s*** about my momma…. One of these days I am going to snap and slap her so hard that Google won’t be able to find her because I am sick of her talking s*** about my family….