Secrets and Lies

I don’t know what made me do it. I rarely even think of him these days. Or any days. But this morning he popped into my head. And I did it.

From IMDb:

"**** *******, a native of California, attended Taft High and worked a JBL before joining the movie industry. He was the pioneer of motion control. While working for the now defunct Apogee, the company that assisted George Lucas with Star Wars, a wire wrapper at the time, he had his first exposure to a motion control system. After examining he found that he could make it workable with some major corrections. So, late one night he stayed in the studio after everyone had left and tested his theory. When it worked, Apogee promoted him and motion control was born. Later when Apogee went bankrupt, he and his partner ***** ****** began their own company **** ********, which supplies motion control system to countries around the world.

He won two Academy Awards. He has been married twice and has two children from his first marriage. **** faced the colon cancer that took his life with the same courage, honesty, and good humor with which he faced life. He was a truly brilliant man and a dedicated film maker. He will be missed."

Reading this makes me nauseated. It was written by his daughter, my cousin. I try to respect the fact that she has every right to love her father. But she has no idea who he was. I do not contact her because she will inevitably talk about him. And every time she does I want to shake her and tell her the truth. This is the man that raped all three of his sisters. This is the man that tried to do the same to me. I wish I was incapable of hate.

PenguinsWalkAmoungUs

April 20, 2006

Garnys

**gentle hugs**

Thanks for the huggs sweetie (you must have played video games as a kid) .. I wish I was there with you. Well it isnt too bad here but I could use a nice CA holiday. Maybe some day .. hope you have a great day. *S*

RYN: I suspect more got caught than admitted to it, though it is an old joke :). Have A Great Day!

Thanks for the note. I guess time will tell. But what can I say I would think that she knows me by now and that there will never be anything between me and the smitten girl (B) as she has several kids and we all know how much I love kids. But I can have her as a friend and I will admit that I would love to visit her if the opportunity arose. But should she be mad at me .. no I dont think so.

But as you say .. maybe it isnt so. And yes .. I do have insecurities as well I have never been much of a ladies man. *giggles* .. I just never do well in that regard. Thus I will be single for a long time probably. I am having a hard time sleeping .. so hope eventually it happens. Thanks for your note and the huggs. *gives her a hugg in return* Sweet dreams. Nite. .. Kevin

forever in motion

April 23, 2006

I meant to leave you hugs on this entry before, but spaced out. {{{sourapple}}}. Re: the swap meet – looks like we’re there for awhile, since we’re getting a great response from customers. Stop by – I would love to see you 🙂 You know where it is, right? Just down the street from here. xxoo,

Chocolate is evil. The only good thing is that I can wear it off pretty fast and it doesnt seem to be going anywhere. But I do want to lose my love handles. Unless of course you and I ever meet .. then I will want them for you to hang on to. *flirts with her* Im sure you will do jsut fine in OA .. hopefully better than I did in SA. Too religious for me .. so I am still a perv. *hehe* Huggs girl

I am at work and not supposed to be goofing off .. so should go. Thanks for the note .. I always love notes from you, now if only someday I can come and see you. Magic Mountain .. here I come. You know I will drag you on the roller coaster. hehehe … yea over my dead body. You are quite ok .. as I hate heights. *huggs girl* ..

The Good Witch

April 24, 2006

RYN: Thanks for your note. 🙂 Take care!!

RYN: oh, I see how it is. you don’t ask “hey, how’ve you been?” or “what’s up?”, just “you’re crazy, it’s all in your head!” 😉 I can see through that – you just want my M&Ms! better ‘fess up! I have no idea what I’m saying, haha. Yeah, I know they aren’t exactly valid, but it is still interesting to see patterns. At least, I do. Maybe I’m just weird, haha. Take care! (see, I actually care 😉 )

RYN .. In January 2006 Apple stopped selling Final Cut Pro as a stand-alone product. I saw this .. but really I dont know as this is Apple software, a little out of my realm. *big huggs* …

noodling…it’s basically catching catfish by letting them latch onto your hand….it sounds really crazy(and it is) but it’s actually a lot of fun. I’m sorry about how you’re feeling in this entry. There’s nothing that overcomes that pain…

Nope girl .. not for me. Me .. I am off to have a little nap with my kitty. Not really that tired, but i love naps. *huggs*

Mommy To A Princess

May 9, 2006

Thank you for the note, sweetie. It means a lot. Hope all is well with you. Have a wonderful day!!! Angela