A Friend in Need

I really, really appreciate how many people have contacted me either here or outside the site to lend an ear to let me talk through what’s been going on and I hope I haven’t offended by being unresponsive. I have indeed said that I needed my friends to be there for me, but I guess my message hasn’t been clear. I’m not looking for a therapist. I don’t need to delve into the ugliness of some of the crap I’m dealing with. I need distraction. I’m thankful to say that last night I got a good dose of it.

On a whim, I drove down to Anaheim and had dinner with a friend. I let her vent about things that she’s going through and then she called her aunt who met us at Starbucks and the three of us wound up hanging out at Starbucks playing Sorry and then watching the Disneyland fireworks show. After that we hit up a local dive bar and played a few rounds of pool. I need more nights like that. No real expectations. Just shooting the shit. That’s how I recharge my batteries. That’s what enables me to get back to life.

Of course, coming home and having an amazing meditation with my neighbor was amazing as well. She taught me a tantra technique called eye gazing. You sit comfortably across from your partner and look at their left eye (because it’s connected to the right brain). You let your focus go, kind of looking at a magic eye picture. If you’re not into meditation it can be kind of hard to explain, but if you’re open to it I highly recommend the practice. It was peaceful, beautiful, healing and a wonderful way to end the night.

I need to recognize that my life is, in fact, balanced. I keep focusing on the fact that I’m struggling in a lot of areas, but I’m so incredibly blessed as well. I’m so thankful for the people in my life. I think I’ll pull out my paper journal tonight and write a ‘thank you’ list to the Universe, listing the people in my life that bring me joy and why I’m so thankful for their presence.