Blah Mode

First off, I don’t recommend buying a computer with a touch screen. I honestly don’t know why are desktop PC is. With having cats they keep walking by the front of the screen when I’m on it and touches the screen.

I’m in a funk. I hope it’s just a funk that’ll go away. I feel blah, bored, tired. I should be extremely happy and omg do I love my baby, I’m kinda running out of ideas what to do with him. We do books, read, in his mega saucer, tummy time, I’ll stand him on my lap facing me (my knees bent) I can only do that for a short time cause apparently I’m not very strong), he’ll sit on my lap facing me with my knees bent. We do some youtube videos on my phone, songs. Current one we’ve been doing is the Snowflake song. After Thanksgiving I’ll kick in with the Christmas.

I seriously wish I didn’t have to work. I’m working Wednesdays, Thursdays and every other weekend. SO I’m not working that much which is nice. I don’t mind my actual job and being there, I just don’t like the detachment. I don’t know I’m wondering if that’s what making me feel so blah. I want to be his number 1 person, there I said it! lol. I seriously don’t know how people go back to work at 40 hours. I’m crying over the 10 I’ve been doing (I’ve only worked one weekend so far, I work this weekend, this is my 3rd working weekend but I took off two weeks ago for Roger to hunt). ALSO, see that I work Thursdays? Yep I work next Thursday, Thanksgiving (for all you Canadians, which actually quiet a few of you are). I was seriously bummed about that. I had said I could open with manager if we needed 2 people to open. Thursdays I’m available noon-6. She scheduled me 9-2. That isn’t bad but kinda is. By the time we get to my brother’s it’ll be 4. Hopefully I might be able to leave early. Once the last order is picked up, I’ll be asking store manager if I can leave. Stupid we’re open, it’s just to pick up last minute things. You order you bread from the bakery on Thursday, it’s really Wednesdays bread. We don’t get a delivery in. The cake decorator isn’t doing anything that day, I know she actually wanted to work. I had asked Roger if I should ask her if she wants it. Figured since it isn’t that late, I should just work it. It is time and a half and since I’ve been working Thursdays, I’ll get holiday pay too. Since I had my last working Sunday off and in two weeks Sunday I asked off, I should just do it. Just sucks.

I decided I should rewrite what the ticker says for Bruce’s age, cause when I look back at entries, the ticker updates.

Bruce Henry 3 months, 3 weeks & 5 days old