this sucks *silver lining & God’s hand!

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it’s gone. i wrote an assignment for a job last night and it’s gone. i saved it and another document to go with it. all gone. i can’t find it anywhere. i’m afraid to write it again b/c it’ll happen again. i just wanted to be done with it. this sucks so bad. i’m upset and depressed and i can’t do it again.

why did this happen?

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it has all come together. i have to have more faith in God sometimes. he always comes through for me when i ask him to. i’ve been asking him why, asking him what to do. suddenly, it came to me while i was sitting with sawyer at the computer. i wasn’t feeling right about this job. i didn’t feel like it was right for me but i did the work and wrote the assignment yesterday. i left it overnight as i do for next day editing. then, this morning, it was gone. i thought, i wonder if this is a sign? but i chose to despair instead of trusting.

it just came to me. it all makes sense now. i’d been thinking how crazy it was that this assignment fell into my lap (it is related to the simpsons) after i’d seen the simpsons movie on the weekend. having not paid full attention to the movie, i didn’t fully grasp it…until i started writing about the simpsons. then i started to get it.

then i lost the assignment to someone else but have been upset at losing a day’s work i could’ve spent on another job.

i hope you’re following me.

now i realize it was not all for naught. i can use what i wrote still! i didn’t lose a day’s work. i just got…misguided, i guess.

i feel much better. must get to editing so i can get the ball rolling.

*phew*

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November 28, 2007

Oh no! I’m sorry 🙁

November 28, 2007

*HUGS*

November 28, 2007

Oh no… that’s terrible. I’m sorry.

November 28, 2007

*Hugs*

You said a PAP should be done once a year. I found out the following. If this is true than I couldn’t get a PAP done every year if I want Medicare to pay for it. Than again if a PAP isn’t allowed for someone with Medicare for 2 years after the first one than I would have to pay the full cost for the 2nd PAP test. Can a family doctor do the Pelvic exam and breast exam? Is childbearing age age 18-45. Medicare covers Pap tests and Pelvic exams (and a clinical breast exam) for all women once every 24 months. Medicare covers this test and exam once every 12 months if you are at high risk for cervical or vaginal cancer, or if you are of childbearing age and have had an abnormal Pap test in the past 36 months. If you have your Pap test, pelvic exam, and clinical breast exam on the same visit as a routine physical exam, you pay for the physical exam. Routine physical exams aren’t covered by Medicare.

Here is info about PAP test Go to http://www.4woman.gov/faq/pap.htm If the following is true than how come one can get birth control pills the same day they have the PAP test done. When will I get the results of my Pap test? Usually it takes three weeks to get Pap test results. Most of the time, test results are normal. If the test shows that something might be wrong, your doctor willcontact you to schedule more tests. There are many reasons for abnormal Pap test results. It usually does NOT mean you have cancer.

November 28, 2007

That sucks so bad!

November 28, 2007

Okay….I don’t follow but I’m glad you’re feeling better!

What did you ask me that I didn’t answer? Why should you have said you need to get a pelvic exam etc if you want birth control? I wasn’t saying a PAP shouldn’t be done every year. I was just saying Medicare wont pay for a person to get a PAP every year. They will only pay for it once every 24 months.

November 28, 2007

I too am a little confused, but hey.. at least you’re cheered up now! 🙂

November 28, 2007

glad it all came to you.. 🙂 *hugs*

Is the following the question you said I didn’t answer. If so I thought I had answered it. I don’t know why I always seem unsure about whether my mother is telling me the truth. No my mom doesn’t lie to me. Does it bother you that I always want to see of others on OD agree or disagree with things my mom tells me. why do you always seem unsure about whether your mother is telling you thetruth? does she lie to you?

I hope you wont stop noting me for always being unsure about whether my mother is telling me the truth.

How did you get the assignment about the Simpson Movie? How did you lose the assignment to someone else? What other job could you have done if you ddin’t get upset at losing a day’s work?

It’s ok you don’t understand why, if my mom doesn’t lie to me, I seem unsure about whether she is telling the truth. I hadn’t thought if I ask ppl on OD whether we think she is telling the truth or not, then who’s to say you aren’t repeating every note you get on here to see if she thinks WE are telling the truth. Just so you know I am not repeating notes ppl leave me on my diary to her from things she tells me that I ask about in my diary. I don’t want her to know I share things she tells me in my diary.

November 28, 2007

you lost me… BUT I’m happy you’re happy!

November 28, 2007

yikes

November 28, 2007

Wow, that sucks…but isn’t that silver lining great?? Sometimes I need to remind myself to put more faith in God and remember that he’s always got my back. Things would be much easier and I think I could stress a lot less if I just kept that in mind. kristen

November 28, 2007

wow….and amen to your insights

November 28, 2007

k well now i what you were talking about.. thats sucky, but i’m glad it worked out 🙂

November 28, 2007

Well i’m glad things seemed to work out in the end, and i’m glad you’re feeling positive about putting faith in God. I’ve been kind of working on that this week too. Sometimes our spirits kinda slip just like housecleaning falls behind or we get caught up eating junk food… and then you just have to slow down and take a closer look at things again. If that makes any sense.

November 29, 2007

I’m glad it worked out for you anyway.

November 29, 2007
November 29, 2007

yep, i’m confused, i’m glad everything worked out in the end.

November 29, 2007

Fate =)

November 30, 2007

I think get it 🙂 It’s all about the lesson you learned. So it wasn’t all for naught like you said 🙂