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damn, i’m just so sad and…i dunno. i just want this stupid week to be over. i’m not even excited about the crop tomorrow. maybe i’ll get excited when tomorrow comes. i’m a little stressed and tired and want dennis home now. i want to get started selling and moving and all that. i want our lives back to normal. i want him here. i want his hugs and kisses back. *sighs* when we lived 4 hours apart, i didn’t even mind. now that i’m used to living with him, i hate having him gone. so weird to go from being totally used to living alone to this now. it was actually weird when we moved in together. it was like "whoa. you’re here ALL the time, aren’t you?" lol.

we really are made for one another. you always roll your eyes when ppl talk about how they’re meant to be and yada yada but we’ve been together for 12 years so i think i can safely say we work. we’ve had rough patches, believe me, and they’re not even that far off in the past, but we always find a way to work it out and become better as a couple.

my sister, on the other hand. ugh. ugh. her man got mad b/c he read a conversation she and i had on MSN (yeah, that’s pretty fucking bad in itself. reading her private conversations) and i laughed at him in the conversation. learn to take a joke. she was sleeping when he read it. he got all mad, yelled at her, and walked out. she had no idea what was even going on. she comes on and basically accuses me of saying something. i told her i didn’t even talk to him and that he probably read her message history. "but i closed it." so? he can still get it. he probably saves all of her conversations and reads them all! and she does nothing!! can you imagine? dennis and i never read anything of one another’s. and we have the passwords. even though he has told me to read the e-mails he gets from men’s health, i still ask him if i can go into his e-mail. he’s not even remotely interested in reading my diary. and he knows he can if he wants. (i do find that a little insulting. i would so read his diary if i could…if he had one.)

i don’t lie to him or hide things. even if i’m not satisfied after sex, i never lie about it. i tell him so he can do better next time. there’s no way i’m suffering so he can have an ego stroke. and we have a great sex life b/c of that. i just don’t get how my BIL can be so controlling and i really don’t get how my sister can just take it. i would yell at dennis for reading my private conversations if that were me. i couldn’t believe that. and then for her not to believe me when i said i didn’t say anything. she was just desperate to blame me. and i’m sure she did. and i don’t care. it was a joke and he’s a baby. he dishes it out. he should take it.

anyway, a very whiny toddler just woke up. he is requesting i sit on the couch with him while he drinks his milk.

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Madwin

November 17, 2007

Sorry you’re having a tough one. Tomorrow will be so great when you and Dennis are reunited!! Maybe you should ask your mom to babysit Sawyer so you two can “enjoy” each other! Heehee!

KittyGotClawz

You’ll feel so much better when he’s home! *HUG*

M.a.m.a.P.a.n.t.s

Yeah I SO think that Jamie and I work very well as a couple, and some couples just DO. Some *get* each other really well and I’d say we’re one of those types… I can’t imagine lying to him or reading his stuff that he doesn’t WANT me to…that is so disrespectful! I hope Dennis is home soooon!

.Tavia.

Yeah I had a rough time just being away from J for one or two nights here and there. 9 days would kill me! That’s good that you and Dennis are honest with each other about sex. I wish J wasn’t so uptight talking about those things! LOL

ducky82114

I’m sorry you are habing a tough day. I hope tomorrow gets here quick for you, so you can have your hubby back! I could not be with someone like that, i don’t see how a woman can put up with that. It’s good that you and Dennis have such a honest relationship.

Ryn: I just had the flu last week and now this?! AHHH lol

Star_North

Sorry you’re feeling bad 🙁 I know how that is. I agree about your sister’s situation – i would be so offended if R went out of his way to spy on me. It would be different if i left an open conversation right on the desktop of HIS computer, wide open… but if he somehow saved and read my private conversations (even though i have nothing to hide) it would be crossing a big line. I’m glad your

relationship is strong – you have a lot to look forward to when this alone time is over 🙂

*Perfectly Imperfect*

Ryn: What kind of medicine?! lol

kris.

wooooooooo, tomorrow is coming! ;D

re: i have to get used to riding with a helmet. they totally obstruct your head radius. i wore one when i went out on the real road. :X

Organized Chaos

I definitely prefer having Kevin home too. You get so used to someone being around and companionship that it’s hard when they go. I’m glad he doesn’t travel on a frequent basis!

fat, dumb & happy

November 19, 2007

Jeez your BIL sounds like a total douchebag. Don’t ever go looking for something; chances are you’ll not like what you find. It’s funny, because Bill read my diary once and confessed and swore he’d never do it again, and for a long time I kinda censored what I wrote because I know that if Bill had a diary I could read…well…I would. LOL I know that you can understand that! And now…hell with that. if he wants to read it he can read about how pissed off I am at him or how freaking insanely gorgeous two of the guys I work with are(seriously I could drool over them both) or whatever. If he doesn’t like it then he shouldn’t be reading it! Same goes for your contolling asshole BIL. And that said, hey! It’s Monday! So Dennis has been home for awhile now. I’m happy about that, because I’m sure you’re much happier now. It’s funny. but Bill and I would be fine gone from eachother for 9 days, mostly because of our lifestyle as it is now. Secret- I’m pretty sure he’d take it worse than I would LOL kristen

Ok, actually I’d miss him like crazy. But anyway LOL kristen again

Keeping It Real

ugh ur BIL is such a jerk >:( i’d be pissed off too