1/8/09 *milestone!

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*beau just rolled from his back to his belly!!! he did it a few times. he seems like he wants to learn to crawl and that’s his objective.

we’re going this weekend to spend my Old Navy gift card! yay! i hope i can find stuff to fit me. ugh. i’m still quite fat. somehow i didn’t gain weight over the holidays though. amazing!! dennis is back at the club now and i resent him for it. not his fault that beau won’t go long enough between feedings for me to go to class but i still resent him. i need to lose weight. i hate wearing my fat clothes. ugh. i feel horrible about myself. i hope this winter is short so i can walk more.

beau still has his crying fits. ugh. we are so exhausted with him. last night, dennis just wore him in the mei tei and i cleaned. it’s sad that cleaning has become a source of relaxation for me. i get to be alone…except when sawyer follows me, of course. i have to be very careful what i eat. that seems to help with the crying. gassy babies–how did we get stuck with two of them!? i don’t think anyone believes us. it’s so weird. or they don’t care. and these are relatives i’m talking about. i’m tempted to record beau’s fits to prove it.

not sure what beau and i are doing today. sawyer’s at school tuesdays and thursdays now (as long as he likes going that much) so we might go out later when it stops snowing (supposed to stop in the afternoon.) maybe we’ll see if my mom drops by and go out with her.

the little man is waking up to eat now…

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