November 11, 2009

Another day in the life of Soph that has forever changed.  Yesterday around 9 pm my father went home to be with the Lord.  As hard as it is the understand my dad who was always going to live forever died last night in my arms.  I am so thankful for the mercy of the Lord and that my prayers of the past two weeks were answered.  I have never in my life prayed so much as the past two weeks.  And my prayers have been answered.

Dad had developed a large tumor on his liver in the past few weeks and it was diagnosed a melanoma on Monday morning.  Dad asked his wife how long he had and  then asked if he had "a day or two?"  She told him that she thought he probably had a few more than that.  But he knew and last night after my brother said his goodbyes, my dad took his last breaths and went home.

Fortuneltly for me I was with him and did my best to ease his fears and told him that Jesus was waiting with open arms.  I told him it was okay to go, and that I would see him someday.

So that is what I am deaing with and today I planned his funeral and agreed to carry the cost because no one else has the means and he did’t have any insurance.  Oh well, that’s life.

Right now I am numb, exhausted and just plain tired.  I pray for sleep and will face tomorrow as it comes.  I will pray for peace and comfort for my family and myself and will face tomorrow as it comes.