Going thru the motions

I want to start off thanking y’all for all the support that you gave me in my last entry.  I have come to know that when the going gets tough, I can come here and get honesty.  You all are the best.

As far as the family goes, I did give my brother the check book because he needed to get some medicine to vacinate the cows and take care of the tractors.  I did not get to see him, and with the crap that I have been working hour wise, I haven’t gotten to see him.  I may print out the facebook entry and let him read it.  I think I know how he thinks and he doesn’t have the "Nads" to stand up to his wife, if she put the kids up to it.  He is in the middle and I feel for him.  But I can’t keep getting my heart stepped on.  It would only make it easier for me to leave this area and not look back.  Time will tell.

I did have the deposition of the man who caused my fall and he as much as said that he didn’t use any kind of safety barriers when he did a job and he still doesn’t.  I really felt like he didn’t care.  His attorney did make reference to the fact that he didn’t think we would be going to trial.  My attorney and his mentor were both present and both felt all went well.  I felt so too.  Hopefully things will go in my favor.  I have left it in the hands of the Lord and will continue to trust in Him.

Contract talks are coming along.  Slowly tho, as the city is playing poor us.  They had a substantial carry over last year and cant really justify no raises.  Also the argument of why a  secretary makes more money than someone who is responsible for lives could not be answered.  She has 6 years as opposed to my 25 plus years.  Tomorrow will be a come to the table and get serious day.  I hope.

As for me, I purchased a excercise bike the other day and put it in front of the tv, so if my but is going to watch tv, my butt is gonna petal.  I need to get myself back together.  The money that I have wasted on paying for a Y membership can go into my savings account and I can do this on my own.

Well I have no real new news, I am just really hoping for warm weather soon, with susnshine because this weather is killing me.  I am tired of slipping on the ice, and feeling like I live in a cocoon(sp).  Now I must him the bed and get up early.  I have a few things to get done before bed and I need to remember to call my brother tomorrow. It will be his 55 birthday.  I will get  him a card and some Reeses cups and he will be happy.  He is a really simple person, and despite our early years that sucked, I love him now and he will always be my brother.  We both miss dad, so we have to stick together somehow.  God bless all and good night.