5/21/04

well well, it’s friday, thank goodness

Shot through the heart, and your to blame, darling
You give love a bad name

i’ve been shot through the heart i guess you could say, i think i like someone. which i kind of vowed against after andrew….but whatever, he was ahhh…..i don’t know how old he is, his names Antero, it’s Spanish, so I don’t know how to spell it….  i think he’s real cute, and its obvious he likes me….but i don’t know, he’s a waiter at a restraunt, and the only way i talk to him is by going there, i went tonight and it was funny, my mom went to pay and he came over to get some dishes, and he said hi and i said hi back, he picked up two dishes, then put his hand against the wall, like leaning,,,and he asked me what my name was (btw not part of the job :D) and my age, then i was like well how about you, what’s your name? and he said Antero…it thinks thats a cool name….plus im a sucker for ppl with accents, and i told him my name then he said it again in his spanish accent and it was hot lol…i don’t know why i’m rambaling on about him, i’m just going to hurt myself, obviously, my parents would never allow me to go out with someone so much older than me, but i think i really like him….he’s just different from guys i know, and he’s so kool and funny …i swear im such a sucker for accents, i’ll be ninety and some guy will walk into the retirement home and say something with an accent and i’ll have a heart attack….lol….

this little girl, doesn’t seem to know what to do,

what’s rightto her is wrong to her parents

stuck between feeling and family, blood is thicker than water

or is it?

the daffidils bloom, one single rose lyes on the ground all alone, its owner unknown

some girl somewhere deserves that rose

for her heart has been broken too many times

and she feels like giving up

and as she tryes and tryes to protest feelings towards anyone they just sneak in the cracks

sneak up and tell her, you can’t hid this anymore, we know you don’t want to be hurt, but if you don’t give him a chance, you may be missing something so wonderful

you can only be so “strong” for so long, without love, you will be miserable, child, let him come on in, he is different from the rest, just give him a shot

she says we’ve got to hold on to what we’ve got, ‘Cause it doesn’t make a difference  if we make it or not We’ve got each other and that’s alot for love- we’ll give it a shot