4/15/04

for some very odd reason yesterday i decided to email my T….if u keep up with my writing you know about my T….oh God i loved him….. anyhow….its a long story but i have been giving him the cold shoulder because this chick told me he was her boyfriend….and yadda yadda yadda…i havent talked to him in like a month….i emailed him, asked him not to tell her i had, cuz her and her friends, putting it nicely, severly dislike me, he emailed me back…shes not his girlfriend, shes a “loser”, he never even went out with her 

see when she told me that she was going out with him….i couldn’t see it, she wasnt really his type….she was a self proclaimed slut…T didn’t hang with sluts much…i got an email from him today, i replyed saying…wait shes not your girlfriend? ive spent all this time not talking to you for nothing…..im so confused….i gave him my cell number i dont think he’ll call he doesnt seem like a phone guy, and i hate phones, so maybe ill be safe…lol

he’ll be going home soon but i still have time to make amendes and set everything straight between us….

their is no number that could account for how many times i have thought about him, what hes doing, how he is, if hes still going out with her….i would love to kick her ass….krista u did that all on purpose….i should have known he would never go out with you!

T, you know i care about you so much…when u left that night and i thought u left with her, i called you a jackass….i was wrong. we both know that. Hun i want to be friends again so badly! You know how much I care about you, nothing will change that! we know each other so well it seems….don’t let that go….