3/30/04

times are tough and you just wanna cry
something inside is wrong, but you can’t tell what
you just want a hug from someone…but not just anyone
memories hurt
remembering saying “i love you” for the first time
what went wrong?
the music plays “hold me hold cuz i wanna get higher and higher, every time i look at you i go blind”
bob your head like everything is fine, not a worry in the world, almost could make a smile
but reality is coming again very very soon…a frown falls over the girls unpleasant face
can’t forget about everything wrong…wouldn’t it be great to get away from it all
i would cry but i can barely blink, i won’t let myself cry…i cry at stupid things, but when i need to cry i can’t…
i wish someone was here to talk to
god i wish john and i still talked….life was better…what heppened to everything?
i lost my talks, i lost my love, im loosing myself. god i wish i still had my talks…i miss them, john is like a brother almost, i can talk to him about anything, and he listens and he comforts in his own way but it makes me feel like living still. he even understands me so well… i came in one day and i was so pissed and snapped at my other friend and  i said i have been fighting with my mother all weekend i walked away and i heard him say “all your life”
i want to cry mate
no one would ever want to be like me!
i can’t stand my life how could anyone else