It’s just vomit

 This is what I tell myself as I am cleaning up curdled milk and yogurt. My baby is sick, I am sick, my hubby is sick. I really hate being sick, especially when it involves a stuffy nose and lost voice from coughing so hard. I suck and being sick, I am miserable. The only good thing that comes from being sick, is lack of appetite. I can’t taste anything and therefore I don’t want to eat everything. But my baby doesn’t have an appetite either and that is not good. She already wasn’t eating because she has 5 teeth coming in at the same time, now she can’t even hold down the Pediasure we are giving her. If she is still puking and not eating tomorrow I will call the doctor. I refuse to go to the emergency room. Last time we went it was because she was running a temp of 105, and the doctor said that is of no concern, then he gave her some infant motrin and sent us home, that was $300 with insurance. ER doctors always make me feel like an idiot, I know they deal with a lot of crap, but I’m a first time mom and all my life I’ve been told, if the fever is 104 and above, go to the doctor. He could have just said oh your a first time mom, don’t worry, here is when you need to worry, and sent us home. Instead he made us feel like bad parents for making him do his job.

The good thing is the baby is not lethargic, she is still up playing, and comes over to lay down for 2 seconds and then goes back to playing. I just wish she would eat and hold it down. The doctor already has us on weight checks because she is under weight. They don’t tell you about all this before having children. Anywho, when I really think about it, it’s not that bad. It’s just so much at one time and a little overwhelming. I don’t know how single moms do it. My hubby has been there every step of the way and it’s still a lot.

But, has this deterred me from wanting a second, absolutely not? That would make me sane, and I am not sane. I have this overwhelming desire to experience pregnancy once more and to try for a boy. I know it’s not guaranteed, but I still hold out hope. That is all a few years away. 

OK so I’m supposed to be cleaning, but lack the energy to do anything but surf the web. I guess I could at least fold the laundry. 

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