Feeling Guilty.

 This is the life of a bulimic. Today I lost control of my eating. It has been a while since I have done that, like just mindlessly ate. I have fallen off the band wagon a lot lately, but those were conscience decisions. Today I just scarfed down food, not so good for me without a second thought and the end results were a stomach ache. The day started out good. I had my breakfast and that’s where it ended. I had to run home at lunch time to let the plumber in and I left my planned lunch at work. So I scarfed down 2 handfuls of m&ms and some pop corn. I thought okay m&ms were bad, but the popcorn was only 100 cals, I can still reel it back in. NOT. I went back to work and had my my lunch and my snack. Did not have a single vegetable and only drank 4 cups of water. I’m still thinking it’s okay. I haven’t had dinner and I am still under my calorie count. Well I shamelessly talked the hubby into picking up some food. I had smoked turkey, probably a 1/4 of a pound, on Texas toast, with BBQ sauce and some baked beans. Right be for that I had three handfuls of m&ms. If you haven’t guessed by now, we have a huge party bag of m&ms left over from our trip. We really need to get rid of those. I don;t think I have gone over my calories for maintain, but I was really hoping to do really good this week, especially after seeing pics of myself from this weekend. I have lost a lot of weight but not as much as I thought. It reminds me of this

Yeah totally felt that way. That’s funny, but yeah. I’ve got to do better. Anywho I am super thirsty and must drink water, lots o water.

TaTa

Created by MyFitnessPal – Free Calorie Counter