HNY!! Cont’d…

And that’s it. Well besides the wandering around the house, sighing, as mentioned earlier. Oh yes, I did that. I looked at all the decorations. And wondered why oh why I had to go NUTS and do SO much. I leave no space untouched, I even have a little bouquet of greenery and poinsettia’s in each china cabinet. It’s so much fun unpacking and decorating, but this year, I’m so tired and the repacking seems like an endless chore. Then I would see all 3 animals sprawled out here and there, remember I hadn’t vac’d for 4 days and feel like I could simply sit down and cry. So back to my little nest of blankets on my chair I would go. With my pot of coffee and my book, and the tv changer ‘just in case’.

But by the end of the day, I felt my heart lighten a little bit. Hubs came home and he brought Chinese, we ate and spent the rest of the night talking and reading and watched a little tv. I talked to Brie a little while ago, and that was the “Carl can watch Logan” talk, and I got upset again, but now with talking about it, I feel like I could start now and have it all done in no time! It’s amazing the power of unburdening one’s soul.

I’ve been worried all week, I knew Carl was getting out on Sat. you see. I knew he’d been calling Brie. So it’d been building, thus my heaviness and depression. I blamed it on my after Christmas blues and worry about dad (he’s better!!), but today had to face the fact it was more then that.

Guess I wasn’t ready until today.

*stretch*

Man, it feels so good to *talk*. I’ve been so wrapped up in Logan, even as wrote that I began to smile as I picture his precious little face, that it’s been impossible to think of anything else. Then came Christmas. Whew.

Ok, no pic’s yet. I told you, I’ve been hibernating! Tomorrow I will drop them off, and should have them Monday. I can’t wait to see them. We have Logan in a couple diff. Christmas outfits, his snowsuit, his old navy bibs and his old navy cap-adorable! We may have been lucky and caught the tail end of a smile…we’ll have to see. He is finding his voice now. *L* He is so funny. He kind of wails now. Just to hear himself mainly. When he wants something, instead of just his little yell, he’ll holler. I regret to say it’s even funnier! Poor child. Only until he’s serious tho’,that lip comes out and smiles are GONE, that boy gets what he wants. Especially from Grandma. Mommy’s a little calmer. *w* I’m wrapped. I know it.

Well, I’ve unburdened my worries and talked about Logan-I feel so much better. Not slogging thru’ water anymore. One of these days I’ll remember to do the unburdening thing right away, realize it’s ok-even helpful!

Thanks for listening. Have a great day.

Ta.