Cont’d…

What in the hell is wrong with OD now?! (Is there no END to the frusterations today!!) I had to rewrite and edit the prev. entry 3 times just to get it to fit on the page when it SAID I had 70 or more characters left!!! Then of course while I was editing, my server dropped the connection and I had to restart call my DSL serveridiots and FIX IT.

Ya see what I mean? A decent woman can’t even get herself a decent bitch session in! AARrggggg!!! One more thing with this computer and I am going to smash it. Dead.

*blows out breath*

*straightens hair*

*smiles*

Ok, honey’s, where were we? *bats eyes* Tee. Yeah, ok, so I’m working with a short rope today. Banging furiously away at the keys, every so often letting out a maniacally gleeful yelp. Well I have to hurry you see, school is an early out today. Chels does hate to see her mother crazy at the end of her day. Oy.

Oh well, at least this anger has chased away my blues and lethargy. I think the most frusterating thing is our inability to DO anything, just sit and watch. Like watching the same accident over and over, when Brie lets him back.

And no, it’s not a matter of too little faith in her-I just KNOW she’s not done with him yet. The way a mother knows. I can see it in her eyes, her body posture, I can read it in her heart. So no, I afford him no sympathy, I’ll need it all for the shit he’s gonna cause.

So maybe Chris will turn out to be Logans daddy. Right now, Brie refuses to entertain that thought and swears she ‘see’s’ Carl in Logan. (well STOP that) So I don’t speak about it. I do not want to see her avoid reality like that. She’s heading for trouble if she keeps it up.

But there is nothing I can do, so no sense focusing on it. I keep praying all the time, and just love her and Logan. I can do those things. Easily. Oh yeah, and I remember that “this too shall pass”. Right?

I have 36 exp. just finished of Logan, I need to drop that off today. He’s just changed so much, I swear he looks bigger every day. He smiles more and more now, still such a happy, contented baby. Brie is such a wonderful mommy-so loving and calm with him and it shows. He still gets p.o.’ed when he’s hungry and there goes the little foot. *L* We tried to get a pic of that, but we were all laughing so hard, I doubt it came out. He’s got a little teeny baby yell that goes along with the stamping foot-that really gets us. I think ‘cuz he’s trying so hard-you know he really doesn’t want to get mad, just fed. *s*

Ok. I better get back to work. Actually I don’t think I’ve really done much today. Hmmm. Better start some then…I’m sure I can find something. *rolls eyes*

Have a good day, my chances are better now, (as always)thanks for listening.

Ta.

I know none of this is funny — but you have me chuckling. I just wish for once I could let go like you go. I’ll keep my fingers crossed for Chris and I’ll cross something that maybe Carl will have a delayed bone fracture, break…at least something for all the grief he’s put Brie through. 😉

MargUK

November 12, 2002

Em …………….. you pissed off at something by any chance ………….?? I know it’s not funny but it was funny to read! Hope you feel better for letting it all hang out ……….

Gosh hon, I can practically hear the banging of the keys all the way over here. 🙂 For all your frustration over this situation, the shining star I see here is that you have been through the same thing with Brie’s dad… so you know it from all sides… from the side of the parent concerned for your child and from Brie’s side… it’s not easy for any of you. It’s good though that you’re coming

here to let off steam and letting Brie figure things out for herself… as hard as that may be to do sometimes 🙂 Here’s praying for you and knowing that Brie’s a strong girl… I’ve got faith she’ll do the right thing and ditch that loser… um… guy… in the end. 🙂 Much love and prayers,

just sailing along

I hope you feel better getting it all down. All you can do for Brie at this stage is be there for her and pray for her. She’s an adult, a mother, and she has to make her own decisions even if they are a mistake. I pray she makes the right one. This must be so hard to watch though, take care of yourself!!! HUGS!

Always listening and caring here, (((M)))). Venting is a good thing. I’m getting close to doing some of that myself. Can’t wait to see the new baby pics! Here’s hoping that everything works out SOON. take care, xo

Estrella

November 13, 2002

{{{hugs}}} Still praying that al works out in the end…

MommieD

Oh Geez, S. Like anybody needed anymore of Carl’s sh*t right now. Hang in there, woman. I can only imagine how frustrating this must be for you. I wish I could offer up some insightful piece of wisdom here, but I’m fresh out. (Like I ever had any in the first place! *snort*) Hug that sweet baby a few thousand more times, that should ease some of your frustration. *Hugs*

DancingSoftly

Just be there for Brie, when she falls… and realizes there is no hope for Carl…Have a game plan. Are they going to have a paternity test done? Can’t wait to see boy big Logan’s gotten… 😀 Huggies.

edna million

And looking forward to pictures!

Mason smiles now. Can’t wait to see the new pictures. I am confused now, who is Chris?

Being of the same sort as you and Brie I know she won’t listen to you. We are the “learn for yourself” types. We can only hope the little shit (Carl) goes away for good. Waiting (im)patiently for new pics. Love ya gf……..

There are those that say that they will be there for you and the ones that don’t have to say a word…you just know they will be. Brie and Logan are lucky to have you as one of the latter. (((hugs)))

While I understand that you’re upset and that this was a rant, your entry had me smiling and thinking that you reminded me so much of a particular cousin (that’s a good thing, don’t worry)! Glad you at least have Logan around, babies tend to be pretty good therapy. : )