2-2-22
I’ve read that 2222 is a lucky number, maybe today I’ll win the lottery! That would be so nice, I’d buy a house that was big enough for my girls and my grandkids and just think of all the people I could help! The homeless, the starving, Vets and the list goes on. What a wonderful thing that would be.
I’m trying to be more positive lately. I’m always grateful for all that I have and I feel so blessed so that helps. I am so fortunate to have found good doctors-although I wish I didn’t have to be on so much medication-they are understanding and helpful and do all that they can to make my life better and have my disorders under control. I am so fortunate to have such good insurance so that all my medications are covered and I don’t have to pay anything. I am so fortunate to be living in an apartment that goes by my income so my rent is very low, in fact when I called around to other apartments closer to my girls and logan and Jersey I couldn’t find anything comparable. I am fortunate that I have an Snap card with cash on it as well. Most of all I am fortunate to have my precious girls and Logan and Jersey.
However I tend to think negatively in most things, a bad habit I really am trying to change. Words are so important, they shape my day with just a few changes to a sentence such as adding an “and” to the end of a sentence. For example say to myself that it’s going to be so cold today and I can still stay in and have a good day. Or it’s going to be cloudy today and I can still enjoy my day. Such a simple thing but it helps my attitude. My therapist told me to do that. She’s wonderful, I have seen her for 20 some years. She’s been with me for all that’s happened in my life and helped me through the changes in my life.
Edit: this entry didn’t save the rest of my entry for some reason and I’m so disappointed but I don’t feel like re-writing it. This will have to do for today’s entry. Here’s hoping this will at least save.