Am I Allergic To Work?

This will be quick. I’ve noticed in reading my own journey (via this diary) that my writing abilities have been quite stunted by an inexplicable emotional force. I haven’t a clue how to gain back the emotionally driven flow of words I used to excercise. What the dealio!?!?

So, quick update: I’ve been working at the same job for quite some time now. I do the minimum to stay employed. I won’t try to sugar COAT that.  It’s not because I’m lazy or am allergic to work. I’ve determined it’s because I don’t like the line of work I’m in. I’ll have moments of sudden inspiration and will work hard for weeks at a time and then I just give up when I see how stifling this position is to my more creative side. I’m here at the very least until I finish my MBA, which is anywhere from 8 months to a year from now. After that, if I’m still employed here, it’s out of complacency. We all know I have a tendency to allow myself to become complacent in many aspects of my life.

With all of that said, a co-worker who works ridiculously hard and all hours of the day from 8am to 7pm sometimes (I have a life beyond work…a better one at that!) recieved a promotion this week because one of our last remaining veterans is leaving. Technically I am the only remaining veteran who has not been promoted. Now, I don’t mind so much because I’m still making the same $$ as said co-worker and yet have less work on my plate. Herein lies my dilemma. Shouldn’t I feel bad somehow? Shouldn’t I want to move up? Isn’t my character that of someone who likes to excell? It always has been. So what has changed in me lately? I feel crummy not because of his promotion and my lackthereof, but because I could care less and that sort of indifference startles me a bit and worries me about my future success in any career I decide upon.

I need career motivation. Where to find it!?

p.s. I have an excruciatingly painful headache above my left eye from playing "Office Politics" last night. I did enjoy myself immensely, and it did inspire me to work a little harder today (after I post this of course lol) because the VP is a woman I admire, look up to, respect, and would be thrilled if I could become her personal assistant.

Well, this headache is taking over and I can’t bear much more. So… I’m off. Till we meet again.

Much Love Always To All My Readers,
The Work Allergic Rose