mi madre

It is so hard to listen to my mom have this great, laughter-filled and engaged conversation with my sister.  whenever i try to let my mom into my life she sits there, not saying a word, just waiting for me to shutup.  how does a daughter deal with her mother treating her like she is invisible? I got into HUNTER today guys, and she barely even blinked twice. Now maybe im being too sensitive, but last time i checked, i dont get into college everyday. so excuse me for wanting to celebrate. on top of not being interested in anything in my life, my mother has just been trying to make this transition (between new school and her moving out)  as difficult as possible.  she seems soo unwilling to help me  set myself up in a way that will leave me stable when she’s gone. but ive been doing fine without her up until now, i guess there’s no reason why i cant just kick ass as hard as i can to make it without her. soon enough she will be out of my hair, and even though i love her desperately and will miss her, at least when she leaves she wont be around to make me feel like the-daughter-she -kind-of-wishes-she-could-trade-in, ya know?