It’s Almost Time!!

I can hardly believe it’s less than 24 hours until I’m on a plane to New York City!! This is so incredible!!! I got up a little early today, hoping to be tired by the time Stan gets home from work, so we can go to bed. Our flight is at 9:26am, so that means we have to get up at 7:00. And I KNOW I’m not going to be able to sleep because I’m so excited! I’m already having trouble sleeping lol. We’ll see how it goes.

I am brining my laptop with me on the trip. I think I mentioned that before, but I know I wasn’t certain I was bringing it. I don’t know if I’ll be posting anything or even be online much at all, but I definitely want to try. I  believe the hotel has free internet acess in the room, so I’ll definitely try.

My plans for today mainly consist of packing. I did all my laundry yesterday. Now I just have to decide what I’m bringing, and get all my stuff together. I also need a shower, though that will come at the end of the day. I want to run out and get Stan some sunglasses, because I think he threw his away last night on accident (he does that A LOT… I’ve thought about getting him a nice pair of sunglasses for Christmas, but I’m afraid he’d lose them lol) and I know he’s going to want some for the trip. I also want to get an extra copy of our key made. We gave Stan’s copy to Aaron, since he’s going to be watching the pets. So I think I’ll do those two things after I finish writing this. I also want to call my mom, and I need to email her the flight info. Oh, and I need to print out our boarding passes, and Stan will call me later with the hotel info so I can call and confirm our reservation again. God, this sounds like a busy day, but I know it really won’t be lol.

My weekend was very interesting. As you know, my final day at work was Friday. When I got home, Amy came over and hung out, and then once Stan got home from work, the three of us headed up to the bowling alley. My old team and Raquel’s team were having a bowling competition, and I wanted to go and hang out with everyone one last time. Kitchen, Juana, Erika, Kedrick and his girlfriend, Jonathon and his boyfriend, and Vargas all ended up coming from my old team. Also, this girl named Kim, who used to be under Amy and is now going to be a mentor on my old team, showed up. Raquel was there with her boyfriend, and some of her team came too, but no one I really knew well except Yashira. Anyhow, I got wasted and had a great time. We basically closed the place down lol. Then we came home and we all passed out, basically. Saturday, I woke up with my first hangover. Stan went to work while Amy went home to shower and change. I usually don’t drink a lot, if at all, when I go out. I don’t like that feeling of losing control. But Friday night was special, a celebration of my breaking out of that hell hole, so I let loose and had a blast. The hangover wasn’t too bad. Mostly just a headache, which was helped by some Aleve, and a greasy burger from Hamburger Mary’s. Yum! Then we came home and hung out until it was time to go House of Blues to watch Gorilla Fight. They were pretty good actually. I enjoyed them. I also thought I saw Steele there. This guy looked JUST like him, and he kept looking over at us. Amy swore it was him, too. When I saw him, I was a little shocked, because of all the places I ever expected to run into him, HOB was not one of them. We never really had the same tastes in music. But, it’s been awhile, and things may have changed. Anyway, after the initial shock, I felt nothing. NOTHING. And I was so happy I could have cried. Because I’ve always been nervous about running into him again, and I never really understood why until that night. I was afraid I would still have some kind of feelings for him. When I ended our friendship so many years ago, it was because I just couldn’t deal with him any longer. Not only was he a shitty friend, but I shouldn’t have been so bothered by the fact that he was a shitty friend. I shouldn’t have cared so much. But because it was Steele, I did. And that caring freaked me out, because I was living with Stan at that point, and didn’t want to screw it up. And Steele was a threat to that. Plus, an immature part of me wanted to be the one to end it for once. For all the times he hurt me. So when I said my final goodbye, things were left hanging. But I felt nothing. A little curiosity about how he is and what he’s been up to, but that was about it. *sigh of relief*

Of course, me being me, I did want to know if it was really him. So, when we got home, I sent him a message on MySpace. Stupid, I’m sure, but I just wanted to know if it was him. He actually responded, and told me it wasn’t him. He asked how I’ve been and commented on how long it’s been. I replied and said I’ve been great, and asked how he’s been. No response yet, but I don’t care either way. I’m not looking to bring him back in my life. Too many complications with that. I know I’m taking that risk anyway, but I don’t have to let him back in. Just a couple messages exchanged on MySpace, and be done.

Sunday I woke up and had the worst allergy attack of the season so far. I didn’t even go outside and I was miserable. Sneezing and runny nose all day. We did have breakfast at IHOP, but I spent the rest of the day holed up inside, wanting to die. Aaron came over to meet the animals and to get the key, and later, Stan and I went to Wal-Mart to get a couple things.

Yesterday, I went to Best Buy to pick up Twilight, the library to get a certain book to bring with me to NY, and Target to get Stan an anniversary card. That’s right – two years of marriage and five years total tomorrow!! <3 <3 I can hardly believe it!! I’ll be writing more on that tomorrow, though not sure when it’ll be posted. All I know is that I love this man even more than I did when I married him, and I can’t believe that’s even possible.

Okay. I think it’s time to get busy. I AM SO EXCITED!! AHHHH!!! 😀