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Nothing worse than a cricket with restless leg syndrome. I’m at work at the moment and I am bored silly. I forgot to bring dvds to watch. I’ve checked out a bunch of videos on youtube, but it’s just not the same. I really wish the Netflix view instantly thing worked on Macs. I love my computer, but I hate how a lot of companies don’t make things Mac compatible.

I’m having a rough day today. It’s one of those days where I wonder where my life is heading and I wonder where it could have gone. I’ve got a lot to look forward to but I hate looking forward and wondering what my family will look like. It doesn’t help that my ex (and mother of my children) is complicating things either. I’d like to think she is not doing it just to hurt me, but she is doing it because she herself is hurt. I keep seeing it for what it is doing to me and not for what it could be doing to her. I guess I’m a jerk that way.

I wonder if this is so hard right now because the two people I call and talk to the most are thousands of miles away. Lang is in Canada for Honor’s wedding (and I hope she is having a great time) and my best friend Eric is in Disney World with his son and his girlfriend who he is about to propose to (while in Disney World). So I guess maybe I’m just lonely. I miss my kids too. I’m a single parent and I have my kids Monday through Friday, but because of a guy quitting and a guy taking vacation I am stuck at work overnight for like ten days straight and I don’t get to see the kids everyday like normal. It’s hard. I don’t know how my ex goes without seeing them. She used to get really upset when they would go to my sisters overnight, I can’t imagine not seeing them all week. She must go insane. I wonder if that would have to do with her attitude towards me?

Changing subjects. My company is going out of business. I’ve owned half this company for a long time now, and I am tired of holding it up while my partner racks in all the cash for doing absolutely nothing. So I stopped saving her ass and no we are going under. I am considering getting out of the security field, but one of my clients offered me a job today. They would creating a “Director of Safety and Security” position and it would play really well and have full benefits. So I’d get to stay with my favorite client, but I would work for someone else. Though it wouldn’t be that bad because I really like the CEO here. So if the board passes the proposal to create the position, I will most likely except the job. The CEO told me today I am “the most valuable employee the NEVER had.” It was a really nice thing to say.

Changing subjects again. I’m going to stop and get Sonic on my way home from work for breakfast. That sounds good.

And another change. So I didn’t get any response to my last post. Really tat song is stuck in my head and I love it, and I want to talk to someone about it, but everyone I know is out of town. Is there no one who enjoys talking about music? I know, I normally talk about movies, but music is a big part of my life too.

So speaking of movies, I started working on one of my screenplays again. It is the one that I think will be the easiest to sell. Though I don’t know if I just want to sell it. The last time I almost sold it the producer wanted to change everything about it and I am not okay with that. It is a great story with fantastic characters and a lot of heart, and I am not about to let him turn it into a movie about dirt bike racing (considering there is not a single dirt bike in the script!). So we’ll see what happens when I rewrite it and and a little more of a rising action. I showed it to a producer (small time but just won a Telly!) and he said that the dialogue rivals that of Kevin Smith (one of my idols). We’ll see how it pans out.

Hmm, what else is there to share? Nope.

So I want to get into a deep discussion. Someone ask me a hard question, please. Something with some depth that I can really go to town on. Thanks!!

Ky