New Crushes and Old Flings

I am such a geek. I have determined that I shall remain a geek till I die. I hate crushes for this reason alone… I start to take that crush, and the STUPIDIEST little things that happen, I overanalyze them and twist their meanings. Example?

Tonight, Mike Minor worked. When I first walked in, I sat on the ledge by the kitchen where everyone rolls their silverware… he sat next to me, semi facing towards me. In acting terms, we were “cheating out” to the audience, 45 degre angles towards each other, and just chatted for a while. Now… how I overanalyze this? “Ooh, look at his body language, it means he’s into me.” “Oh, he sought me out when I walked in so he could talk to me.” And it can go on for ages. So, that is when I told Lauren I was ending my crush. She gave me this advice:

“It may be just me, but whenever I think someone is cool, but, not sure what I think about it, but then hear THEY have a crush on ME, I start to crush back.” Which… oddly enough, is true in my case as well. In otherwords, she was trying to get my permission to tell Mike Minor how I feel. I told her, NO. She was like, “I could hint! Be like… ‘So, are there any girls that work here that you would date?'” I told her she might as well pass him a note during study hall that says, “Would you date Liz? Check ‘yes’ or ‘no’.” I’m not desperate for a date, but, it would be nice.

That was the new crush. Old flings? Ran into Raf on Saturday. Raf and I stopped “doing things” back in July, and now he has been dating Lisa, a girl I have worked with for four years now (She used to work at Houli’s too, now works at Champp’s). She’s really nice, she has a son, Austin, who just started Kindergarten. They just make such an … ODD couple. Not that I want to date Raf or anything. It was just awkward.

We were all sitting in the bar, and he sat at the head of the table, Mike between us. We tried to make normal conversation, but it was difficult. He did look awfully good though. We avoided all physical contact, not even a hug. It’s cool. But, I have a feeling that if I were to ever tell him I’d like to date him, he may drop Lisa. He just never dates outside our circle of friends, which is kind of eerie, but cool, I guess.

After that bar, we went to visit my old place of business… Houlihan’s. Monica was working in the bar, I miss her SO much! She’s been working there for over 21 years now. When I told her I missed her, she told me and Mike, “When you guys were here, it was like a family. Now, this is just a job.” Gary, the manager, walked out and started talking to us. Now, I don’t know if I just have the face that says, “Tell me your life story”, but it happens all the time. He told us about how all he does is work, and visit his girlfriend in Milwaukee, but how he doesn’t think it’ll last much longer. So, he said he wanted to hang out with us. He asked for my number, so we can hang out, so I gave it to him. We’ll see if I ever hear from him.

Other than that, life has just been routine. Work, school, sleep. I can’t wait to be done, DONE! 68 more days and counting. Till next time 🙂