Motivation

Church on Easter Sunday always motivates me- to be better, to be something, to be ANYTHING. This year was no different. The song one of the choir members sang had me burst into tears at the end. I clapped along with the singing, and just felt the presence of God, something I had been missing for a long time. Anywho- I promised an update, so here I go. In order:

FIGHT WITH MOM- no longer an issue. Basically, it all comes down to her calling me last Sunday, whilst I was out with friends, and telling me that she thinks I ignore her, don’t love her, and LEFT HER LIKE MY FATHER DID. She accused me of abandoning her, and… everything she said really hurt. I just hung up on her, because I didn’t want to say things I would regret later… such as, “You are being just like Nanny, manipulating me just how your mother manipulated you.” She did not take kindly to that. The next morning, she called early, woke me to my hangover, and apologized. We are better now. I just have to be more considerate.

MIKE MINOR: Yes, he is gone. I am sad, work is hardly as much fun without him, but I’m surviving. I wrote him my own personal goodbye card. And, no, I did not confess my secret crush, but I hinted… I think… here’s what I wrote:

Mike~ Well, it’s finally here. You’re done with school, outta Champp’s (you suck) and done with the serving industry forever (you suck even more). I just wanted to write you my own little personal note wishing you good luck, and to tell you how much I enjoyed working with you. You really did bring a smile to my face every time I saw that you were working. You sure knew how to make me laugh and make my dark days of serving as a “living” a little brighter. I’ll miss cliking snapple caps, our illegal “not asking permission” smoke breaks, and bitching about everything and anything Champp’s. I’m going to miss your sense of humor, your wit, and your always smiling face. I wish we coudl have hung out more and gotten to know each other even better. Congrats onyour graduation and for following your dreams. I’m sure you will go far in your life, and I hope you’ll keep in touch with me so I can share in your success and happines. Good luck in everything you do, and remember the little people here at Champp’s that will miss you, even though you blew us off (jk), namely me. Congrats and good luck!

Signed, with a “heart” Liz. ….Yes… I miss him already. But… there is good news… later in the update….

MONEY ISSUES: SOMEONE stole the info off my discover card (I have NO idea how) and bought 260 dollars of stuff with my card. I called, complained, and the lady that “helped” me was a total biatch. Well, Karma… lady, Karma. They are sending me a new card, minus the expenses someone else had bought with it. Anywho…

VACATION: CAN NOT WAIT!! We are leaving April 20th, renting a car (pretty cheap, too) and driving to Florida for a week of relaxation.  I just need not to serve tables right now. I need a break from people bitching, and from weather that is almost nice, then snowing the next day. And.. why fly when you can drive and take your time? Then we have our freedom down there as well. We can leave his parents house if we want to. DISNEY HERE WE COME!

THINGS TO ACCOMPLISH: I have decided not to go out drinking until I get back from my vacation. I need to start saving money, because Lord knows my car isn’t going to hold out forever. So, when I get back, I am looking for a REAL JOB. I need insurance. I am going to start my search for a masters program, and start a diet (yes, an actual diet). I have to start exercising again. I quit because of my mind set:

Sunday night, I would drink. Monday morning, too hungover to work out, I’ll wait till tuesday. Tuesday morning- it’s my day off, I’ll relax, go  on Wednesday. Wednesday… it’s already mid-week, I’ll wait till Monday. And the cycle repeats. So, the new LIz is going to try and EAT BREAKFAST EVERY DAY, WORK OUT THREE TIMES OR MORE A WEEK, and most importantly… church. I miss my connection with God. I just want to be closer to him, and put more energy into thanking him for the good in my life than blaming him for the bad. It’s been almost 9 months since I have had sex. I am almost thinking of revirginizing myself, and then waiting till marriage… who knows? I just want to change…

PSYCHIC: I hardly beleive what she says, but it’s still fun. The best part of it? I’ll write it in PLAY form:

PSYCHIC: Throw me five cards

LIZ: (Throws her five cards from the deck)

PSYCHIC: Who is this boy you have a crush on?

LIZ: (jaw drops) This boy Mike, I worked with him. He’s moving back to Missouri tomorrow.

PSYCHIC: Throw me another card… (deep in thought) Silly girl, he had a crush on you too! I don’t think you were meant to spent the rest of your days together, but you will get in contact with each other down the road and have a wonderful friendship for many years.

Yup- She said it, not me. HE LIKED ME TOO! ARGH! Oh well, it’s over. I will e-mail him as soon as I feel moved. He comes back in June to walk in the graduation ceremony. Maybe I’ll see him then. The rest of the psychic visit was fun, but nothing life altering. Just plain fun.

And that, my good folks, is my update for now. Hope you enjoy! (And I LOVE this smiley things!) Thank you all, and GOOD NIGHT!