Spiral
Sometimes it is difficult not to spiral, thinking about death. Even though I’ve only seen 3 dead bodies with my own eyes, I think about the pictures of dead Palestinian children. Then I remember the starving children in Sudan. Then I remember children being murdered in schools here every year. Then I think about the two kids who froze to death in the car because their mom couldn’t afford housing. Then I think of all our Indigenous sisters who go missing and missing and missing and missing and missing and missing and missing and missing and missing and missing and missing. Then I think of every black person who’s ever spoken out against this shit, getting murdered in the streets. While they sleep. Strangled by police, beaten to death by police, shot so so so so so many times by the police…
And there are so many I’m not even including. So many that deserved to be called out. All of these lives lost. I sit and I think about people I’ve never known, seen, spoken to, names I don’t know… And why I’m here and they’re not.
Maybe they’re lucky they tried to live for anything and died for something.
But why the fuck am I still here?
You are here to bring more peace so I hope you can have more inside during these tumultuous times. I want to add that I am praying for and holding in my heart also the people and children of Israel who were attacked and have been living in this G-d Awful war since. I am not excluding any of your list OF COURSE. Only adding to our web of love and concern for our fellow humans.
with peace and love to you
@bronner I am the product of indigenous genocide, just like the children of Israel, and so they will be imbued with the same sickness that is in my heart.
I cry for all of humanity and I am trapped inside my own privilege and fragility to do anything else.
@sleeponflyon
I know you do. I think you will keep speaking out and acting in the next indicated right step each day and in that are doing more than just crying and I know you will hurt as you watch all this.
I am holding you in my heart too, so tightly .
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I think many of us feel like that. I certainly do. I never pass a homeless camp or person without wishing I could help, and having to realize that I can’t. I can’t read the news about Gaza any more — it’s so awful and again, there’s nothing I can do about it (and I would if I could!) It’s hard to come to terms with those realities, but in the end, all any of us can do is do whatever we can in our own little corner of the world. That might be mall, and certainly doesn’t fix the big glaring problems, but I believe it makes a difference. Just being a Big Brother or Sister, for instance, makes some disadvantaged child’s life miraculously better. Volunteering at a food bank. Volunteering at a place like Loaves and Fishes. Like bronner said: Only adding to our web of love and concern for our fellow humans. It’s all we can do.
That should be small, not mall.
@ghostdancer I am volunteering locally and have donated money for water trucks in Palestine. I think I can do more still.
@sleeponflyon Thank you for that! I wish I could do either, but don’t get enough $$ to have any to spare, and am physically unable to volunteer anywhere. Which saddens me. But maybe I’m helping a little by posting those articles — maybe they will encourage others to get more involved.
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The loss of any innocent life is very painful, at least to me, but in terms of what is going on in Middle East (Israel Vs. Hamas and their Terrorist Friends), I can only blame Hamas.
I too wish could do more to help all those in despair and in some way help the IDF find all those still been held by Hamas and all other hostages being held by terrorists. I often wonder how much worse can life and the world be, considering what the world has been through for two thousand and twenty five years. Don’t we learn from history? Or are we just truly doomed to repeat it again and again and again?
Guess all we can hope for is for Peace to be reached soon and for the leaders and those with power to be and do better.
@ncumisa I blame America and the UK for putting Israel where they did instead of the other locations they were thinking of putting it, and displacing the indigenous population there. I blame the US for funneling money and weapons into Israel so they can complete the genocide of their enemies that threaten them. I blame myself for being complacent while my tax dollars pay for bombs that kill children.
The leaders of the world aren’t interested in peace, unless that peace is built on the bodies of their enemies. I do not accept that world.
@sleeponflyon I SO agree with that! That land has historically belonged to Palestine, and America and the UK bulldozed Israel int there — I don’t blame the Palestinians or Hamas for fighting to try to get their country back, or at least keep Israel from co-opting it any further. I also blame the US for funneling money and weapons into Israel, signing treaties with them that keep us tied to more of the same. We need to turn Israel loose, imnoho.
@ncumisa yes Jews, Palestinians, and even Christians all lived in this area. The State of Israel wasn’t established until the late 1940s, and the Jewish people did not establish it. It is a colony of the US and UK empires. Unfortunately this colony distributed the local people who were already there and caused strife between them.
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@ghostdancer Israel would be a dust hole too if we let them fend for themselves. Creating states of war and then pulling back to buffer ourselves is something the US is very good at.
Don’t feel bad about what you can’t do. You’re finding things you can do. I find your posts informative and easier to digest than the news and all the other BS
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@sleeponflyon Thank you! I post those articles for myself, but with the theory that other folks need to be aware of what’s going on that certainly isn’t going to get reported on the 11 o’clock news.
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