Throw the meds out the window

I began my new job this Friday morning through tomorrow morning. Then it’s back to my regular job till Friday morning. Friday morning I am back at the new job till Monday morning (Labor day) then home to my parents then on to my new routine.

First off, I am very emotional and sad to be leaving my current job. I love and adore that family even when I hate them and want to run away screaming. I never hate the children…it’s the cleaning, the parent demands, the parents fights I am stuck listening to, the being woken up when I am “off the clock” because people are rude etc. I LOVE the children and really feel like that is my home. That all being said, I really feel I am going to adjust beautifully to being here. My new boss is super sweet and so normal seeming yet so different.

Let me describe her based on first weekend impressions. She is about to turn 40. She has a very high paying job for a large international company. Most of her friends (the 4 that I have met) are all about 40yrs old, single, and own several companies or investments that allow them to own their apartments and have summer homes in the Hampton’s or travel to places like Spain for three weeks on a whim. She is a single mother, by choice. She had been in a long-term relationship that ended a few years ago and knew it would take her too long to find “the right guy, date, and marry.” She went and got a sperm donor and had to beautiful babies. They are boy/girl twins (about to turn 1yr old). Sweet, fun, cute. They live in a co-op building (she owns an apartment that costs over a million dollars). There are two dogs. I take care of the babies Friday alone and Saturday and Sunday with her. It’s wake up, bottle, breakfast, play, nap, dress, lunch, play bottle, nap, snack, play, dinner, bath, bottle, bed. Pretty basic and fun. The dogs have a dog walker and there is a cleaning lady. I rinse baby bottles/spoons. I clean the high-chairs and put dirty laundry in a hamper. All else is magically taken care of. There is no cooking, all food is delivered from Fresh Direct and you just heat it up and feed yourself. Babies are on mostly jar foods but same goes for them if it’s a solid…heat and serve. We are less than a block from a really nice park, a few blocks from central park, close to a library and the kids have music and gym classes. Music is on the weekends and the other stuff is mostly weekdays. They get therapies but those are all Mon-Thurs. They are really fun babies even if one spits up a lot!

My stress level has dropped significantly the past few weeks. I’m just happier in general. I believe Derek is moving across the country again and I’m bummed but have an okay outlook. He finds out Tuesday what his options are and has to make a decision by the 18th. Honestly he has said his life goals are egocentric. Relationships and women are fine but not in his future. I’m glad he admits this although part of me doesn’t believe this is true for him. I am not being blind, just he acts so opposite of that and often discusses a future, specifically with me in it. I am not getting my hopes up or putting it in my head we will work. I really think I will meet someone for me somewhere.

I’m excited for graduate school. A ton of work but I’m ready. I want to earn as close to a 4.0 as possible. I am going to try hard. I also need to eat a bit better. More fruits/veggies ( I actually like a ton more than I use to) and less Oreos and Ice cream.