counting to 10

I write often…I then delete them. There is no reason for this..it just happens. Instead of paragraphs I am numbering today.

1. I took 4 steps today without crutches. I am very excited. I wish I could just walk away.

2. I am in NYC now. I live here as of yesterday. I hope this works out.

3. James has spent the past few months being everything I need, so of course I had to move. Let’s see how this goes. I am not his "girlfriend" but I have no desire to look for someone else. I wonder what he is thinking but I refuse to ask.

4. I have a cough and a cold. I’m not happy. It sucks.

5. The twins were very happy to see me yesterday when I moved back. The girl is a handful and very whiny. She cries for everything. The boy is amazingly sweet and a good listener. She wakes up early and makes a ton of noise, he’d sleep till 7am at least if she would stay quiet.

6. The next two weeks I do not have classes, only work. This gives me a lot of free time to get walking.

7. I work Monday-Thursday nights. I give the babies to the other nanny at 9am. I work full days Friday-Sunday. I have one day off a month. It will be a Thursday.

8. An old crush/friend from middle/high school has found me on facebook. I love talking to him. I miss having real friends besides Amanda and James.

9. I made no resolutions. I do have goals.

a. I want to walk.

b. I want to have all A’s (A-‘s are fine)

c. I want to either be with James or leave James completely

d. I want to make a few new friends

e. I want to find a new hobby or interest

f. I want to wear make-up more and pay attention to how I carry myself

g. I want to cook more, eat prepared foods less.

10. I am going to write more often. The next few weeks I’m going to be quite bored.