you’re not a perfect person

what was said hurt, even if it was only said to make a point come across. it needed to be said though. i didn’t realize how careless i was being. i just knew i was getting more silent eacgh time i talked, listening for some hint that i wasn’t an idioot to him. instead, that silence grew thicker in-between us and now he thinks we’re not as close as we once were.

that’s not at all what i intended. i only wanted things to turn out right. now when i anser the phone guardedly i know that i keep too much inside. when i think through his answers and listen to him talk, it’s alright to talk back. we don’t have to crack up during every convo. we’ll have time enough for that, if he doesn’t weary of me. it’s alright if i posess the convo for a time to tell my day. i don’t have to wait until asked. i can just jump in and he won’t think i’m being too pushy.

yes. i learn.

~debbi