you’ll never understand

i get it now, i guess. eogan was just online and we chatted, but there was nothing. he was barely paying attention to me as usual and when we said goodbye, it was almost as if he left without saying anything, but he did.. and it’s confusing.

already i feel as though we’ve been apart for a long time. as if we never dated. it’s just that for me. i have nothing. no pictures, gifts, letters- nothing. i don’t care, i guess. maybe. but i don’t feel the same as i have when splitting up with someone. i don’t find myself irrepressively sad. i feel almost.. good.

i’m going to write him. i may regret it, but i have to.

~lenore