never is a promise

so that’s it. nick has bigger and better things to do and i get left behind. i know it’s not that way at all, but i feel sorta empty and somewhat used. i know he didn’t though. he says he still wants to see me, but i guess i’ll find out. i’m not calling him again for awhile. i don’t want to cry. if he calls, i’ll talk but.. i feel so miserable. at least i got through my classes. he thinks that, possibly, someday we could be together again.. but he’smoving to new orleans in january to start leading the life he wants to live. he says he doesn’t want to me through the hardship of him being so far away again. i feel almost that i did something wrong. i can’t type anymore.

~lenore