geogie porgie

i had a long talk with alex. he’s suicidal and given up. he wants to die in his sleep and is obsessed about death. with as much as i’ve been through, i thought i could help him out a little bit. i didn’t do as well as i’d hoped. he just shot down everything i tossed out (like nick). i feel like i should’ve been able to do something else, but i didn’t have anything left to say. it’s like i’m growing out of that part of me, the part i used to think was my only good part, and still do think for the most part. maybe this summer will help..

..but i’m worried about alex..

~debbi