together again

 
Well Chris is back from the stupid TDY. He was able to come home 2 days early. He got home a little before 11pm on Saturday and we were able to have the weekend together… which was nice! Nicholai was so excited to see his daddy. He reached for him and snuggled into him as soon as he walked in the door. It was priceless. And we are a complete family once again. 

The deployment has been moved up from what I last heard…. I still don’t feel anything. I keep waiting for it to hit me, to cry about it…. something…. but I’m still "fine" with it. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. Is there something wrong with me? I feel like it should have hit me by now. I can’t believe how close this deployment really is. After 2+ years… and here we are now… about to go through it. It’s weird. I just don’t think it’s in my brain. *Tries to shove reality into my brain* Nope… still not sticking.

We have a lot of stuff going on the next 2 weeks, and then we have to plan for our trip to Jersey. I have so much to do. I hope that I can get it all done in 2 weeks. Because I’m going to need the week before we go to Jersey to clean and get ready and pack and everything.

Nicholai is doing great. We have his 9 month well appt coming up next week. I can’t wait to see what his ped says. I wonder if he is on track. He ate green beans for the first time, like actual cut up green beans. I was so proud of him because he has had no interest in table food until yesterday. I hope that I’m doing everything right. I really need to get on the ball with making baby food. I’m tired of buying it and I would much rather go natural and just make it myself. It just takes time and Nicholai doesn’t let me have a lot of that.

In fact his nap will be over soon, I’m on borrowed time right now since it’s after 3 lol. He can wake up any time…. guess I should stop here while I’m not in mid thought lol 

… don’t be afraid, sometimes they come true! … music is my life