they are coming to take me away

I was pretending to write my english comp II paper when I came across this vid on youtube… obviously… but you all must watch it. The song is just amazing!!! It has made my day! I have been listening to it non-stop since I found it! Its amazing!!!!!! And as if I haven’t slipped into enough madness I have become obsessed with the PSP game Loco Roco! All it is are little circle blobs that join together and roll around the stages. HA! I have lost my mind totally! But I am in a good mood after playing the game and watching this vid. I don’t think that I could ever be sad after watching this so this is my sanity…..

I have all these room decorating ideas floating around my head right now. From what to paint on my walls to the sheets that I am going to buy to the wall decorations from Spencers that I am going to get from the carpet and the color and the new posters… OMG!! In a way I am excited and I want time to get all this stuff done. I want to go to IKEA so I can look at new desks for my room and I can give the old one to my brother. I have to clean out my closet and see if my father can repair the hole in the wall from the bathroom so the steam from the shower can stop leaking into my closet and ruining all my shit. I can only hope this excitement stays with me… and I know that I will be upset when I am packing up all my stuff, but you know what? If Chris doesn’t want me around him the goodbye… I will have my cats, yes Aurora and Riku are coming with me and I don’t care what Chris says about it! I will have my own space with my own design to it. And Amanda can come over and we can watch TV and I will buy a PS2 so I can play games and get another DVD player so I can watch my DVD’s like the Covenant (oh Caleb is hott) and Underworld 1 and 2 and Invader Zim….

I will get my own alcohol supply and hide it in my room. I can start exercising again. It will be good and I will have to keep looking at it in a positive light to keep myself above the pain. I am tired of wallowing in it…. dwelling on how much I hurt all the time. I still hurt but you know what…. I don’t FUCKING care anymore! I am me… I am amazing… and my future will be great… I will make it that way and if Chris and all these other guys want to try and destroy me…. BRING IT ON FUCKERS!