the dreaded life of the Army

One of my worst fears has come up again…. they are talking about extentions for AD Army again! I mean I knew that it was possible… I knew that his 15 months was never set in stone, but they are talking about it already. They just had a huge troop surge but now they are saying that Iraq isn’t stable enough for them to start sending people home! And they say that Iraq may not be stable for a decade or more! I realize that Rob and all the rest of the Armed Forces of the United States have a job to do and we as the United States has a responsibility to the Iraqi people, to protect them and help them, but the United States also has a duty to take care of the soldiers who fight for us. They need to come home… to recharge, to see their families, to continue their education…

Maybe I am being selfish… but I think that I reserve the right to be. It isn’t only my life that is on hold, it is Rob’s life as well. I knew that this was what I signed up for when I fell for a soldier, I knew that there would be long, undetermined amounts of time where Rob and I wouldn’t be able to see each other… I knew that was the case, but I also know that I am not the only one. There are hundreds…. thousands of woman out there waiting for their men to come home… and they deserve to be thought of too.

I small part of me wishes that he had never reenlisted… but it is my fault that he did. I have my own self to blame for that. Otherwise he would have been home already, his 3 years was up, but he reenlisted for 3 more… and that is not to say that I’m not proud of him… I have never been more proud of anyone in my life, but I miss him. We are only 2 months in… and there was already one extention and now another… I would hate to think that this extention word is going to keep popping up and shattering my world.

And the sad, depressing, painful part is… I know that it will.