the days are blending…

For some reason yesterday felt like a Monday and today feels like Saturday. I don’t know what is going on with my mind right now… maybe the lack of sleep or the constant feeling of nausea that I can’t seem to shake. I am starting to get used to it. I have felt sick to my stomach for the past week and after reading that letter the feeling got worse, but it is now back its usual dull feeling of the need to throw up. This feeling I can live with, I expect it to come the second that I wake up and wait for it to get slightly worse right before I lay down for the sleep that takes forever to come. Last night I was asleep around 4:30-5am and up at 9:30. Ahhh…. such a restful sleep full of fitfull dreams that I don’t remember this time. Although they are probably better then the dream I had about being taken hostage and forced to rob a bank with Rob and a friend that I don’t know… only to have her cut our captors face with a box cutter and to run out of the bank that we were in to watch it and the truck we drove explode to leave Rob, who was carrying me, and this mystery friend standing in the middle of the desert watching the bank burn and looking around at the sea of sand and wondering what we were going to do next.

It has been 1 week and 1 day since Rob’s last call. 3 days since I got his letter and card. Yesterday I got my package from cafepress. I need to wash the shirt gently and dry it in the drawer since it is a little larger then I had hoped. I am hoping to drive around today and find a place that does decent airbrushing. I know of one that is down the street from me and I think I am going to try going there. I am running out of time to find a place and get it done. I still have to pic out a picture from the limited ones that I have of us together. I think that is what I am going to concentrate on today.

I saw 1408 last night. It was pretty good. I think that I am seeing Evan Almighty tonight but most of all I am looking forward to Army Wives at 10pm. Less then 12 hours away, thankfully. Also last night I finished my second book and I am on my way to the mall soon to buy myself the sequel to it. Reading is going to become my life this summer I have a feeling. My life revolves around losing myself in the life of others on the pages that I read. The last book that I read was amazing at pulling me into the world and making me forget about what was going on in mine. I wish the book was longer, but I have a feeling that the sequel is just a amazing since the first chapter of it was at the end of the first book and after I read it I wanted to run to the mall and grab the book right then only to look at the clock and realize that it was 4:20am and I needed to sleep before the mall would be open.

Today… what to do with myself today? Well I have to call that woman about the summer job since I haven’t heard from her… I have a feeling that she decided not to take her kids out of daycare for me to watch so now I think that I have to go find a job. I am thinking about working at the book store in the mall… well any mall, since books are now my life… sad but true. I have to write down my diet/workout plan since I start tomorrow and I am sticking to this one no matter what. I will lose this 20 extra pounds that I don’t want and I will keep it off!

I should probably start studying for the Praxis. I wish there was a way for me to speed school along, but I think that I am really stuck doing this for another 3 years of my life and I wish that wasn’t true, because I just want to start my life now! I am so impatient, hmmm maybe I can clean my room…. again. I would mow the lawn but I think thats been done, maybe I should wash my car… or maybe I will write Rob letter number 7. Oopss I mean 8, I forgot I wrote him letter number 7 while I watched Jarhead the other night. And to answer all your questions, No… I have no idea why I let myself watch that movie because it only made me upset.

*sigh*… I’m done

Bring our troops home safe and soon!

I love Rob forever and always

Summer book list

1. Chicken Soup for the Military Wife’s Soul… 307 pages

2. Twilight by Stephenie Meyer… 498 pages

3. New Moon by Stephenie Meyer… 28 pages in