survived day 1

Well I survived the first day…. I don’t know how considering that I never went back to sleep until after Nicholai was in bed for the night and my day started at 3:30am. But somehow I made it! It wasn’t nearly as bad as I thought it might be…. but that weird emotion I was feeling yesterday is still growing. I feel like I am carrying around this mountain in my stomach, it’s frustrating. I talked to Molly about it since she has been through 2 deployments already and she said that it’s normal to feel that and it will never go away but that I will get used to it. Which is fine… I will deal with getting used to this feeling.

I heard from Chris already!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

He emailed me last night, he made it overseas but he isn’t done with the travel part yet. He is already talking about my sending the first care package so I’m kinda excited about being able to send it to him. I gave him a letter before he left to read on his travel and he said that he liked it and that it made him cry… not my intention but it was a pretty emotional letter so… I’m just so happy to have heard from him already. I was thinking that I wouldn’t hear from him until Monday at the earliest. The MIL called Chris’s cell phone before I had a chance to shut it off… I listened to the message so I could tell Chris what it said and it was just her calling to say that she loved him and hoped to hear from him soon, all the while crying. I know that he is her only child, her only son but come on. He wasn’t even gone a whole day, it’s not like he lived with her and now she won’t get to see him everyday. Maybe I’m just being hard on her but geez.

I had some time to edit some of the pictures…

Our last family pic til next year (I look terrible but it was like 4:30am)

And the last pic of my boys together til next year

So far Nicholai has been doing pretty well. He napped like usual yesterday and is napping right now. He slept through the night from 11:30pm-6am when he woke up and fussed for a bit before he fell back asleep til his normal wake up time of 7am. I don’t know if that will last… he was up super early yesterday and we ran errands all day after Chris deployed so he was really tired. We aren’t going out anywhere today so tonight will be the true test.

I have to get moving on Nicholai’s birthday party. I’m going to try and order stuff right now and pay some bills… so I’m going to end this here.