*sigh* it all just seems to drag

I don’t know what has been up with me lately… I have been so down and I haven’t really felt like doing anything. I’m not sure when I started feeling down but I can’t seem to get rid of it. There has just been so much going on, good, bad and otherwise…. I am trying to get all these things done but I have no idea what is going on or atleast that is how I feel. I was sleeping last night and I woke up in the middle of the night wanting to cry… I don’t really know why. I shouldn’t be down, I mean… 5 days from now I will be in North Carolina with Chris. I shouldn’t feel like this.

I really noticed it last night when I was out at this party that was complete and utter crap. It was supposed to be a St. Patrick’s Day party with Chris’s best friend John… I got there… and I brought my friend Kersey, and the only people that were there were John, his girlfriend Erin, this crazy girl Andrea, and then Chris’s ex girlfriend Brit showed up. I don’t know what it was…. I just felt so sad. Then John and Erin start making out in front of me, and then disappear off into the bed room. UGH… I was kinda mad, but oh well.

So today I gave in and went shopping. Shopping usually makes me feel better and I guess I do… I don’t know. I got some shirts, a pair of sweat pants, a pair of shoes and some stuff for when I go to NC. I just wish the day would go by so Sunday can go by so the week can go by and I will be getting off the plane and walking into his arms and crying my eyes out because I have missed him so much.

I have been thinking about wearing this really cute dress that my sister has to get off the plane. I just want to look really cute, but I shouldn’t really spend anymore money. I guess I will just have to wait and see. I haven’t even tried it on so I don’t know if it is going to fit me. I hope it does because it looks really cute on her.

I guess I will write more tomorrow…. it gives me something to do.

… don’t be afraid, sometimes they come true! … music is my life