school, pregnancy, happiness

 
I haven’t talked about it in a while but with this deployment coming up I have been thinking about it more and more… I want to go back to school. I have my Associates Degree, but I can’t teach with that. I need a BA atleast so I have been looking into online universities and I think that I have settled on Western Governers University. It has the major that I want, its totally online so the only time I have to go anywhere is when I need to take a test since I have to go to a testing center. It shouldn’t take longer then 2 to 2.5 years to finish. And then I would be able to teach. I haven’t quite decided which program I want to take. There is one that will let me teach K-8, but I don’t want to teach older kids so I have thought about doing the one that is birth through 3rd grade, that way the oldest that I would ever teach is 3rd and that is fine with me. I have to look into that more. I also found that there is a scholarship for military spouses that would save me $1,500 a semester and that is more then half the tuition, plus I can file for financial aid so I wouldn’t have to pay much at all.

I really think that this university if perfect for me, a military made single mom come January. I’m actually excited about it and I know that having school work to focus on will help this deployment go by even faster. I’m a little concerned about how I am going to get books and who is going to watch the little nudger while I go to the test centers to take any tests that I have but I still would have to get accepted first. I’m not too worried about that, I have a pretty high GPA from my last college, but still… with more and more people trying to finish school its becoming more competitive.

I still have to talk to Chris about this and we have to look at the money aspect of this. I don’t want to be struggling since we will have the baby and the SUV payment, but with him deploying we will be bringing in extra money so that would really help and then I can start looking for a real job and no more nanny jobs, I can actually contribute to bringing in an actual paycheck so that we can afford a house in the next couple years. By the time we are looking at getting pregnant again we need to be almost ready to buy a house because 2 kids are just not going to fit into this apartment.

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As far as the pregnancy goes everything is going great. Allison and Eric have been here since Friday and its been so awesome having them here. We finished the nursery almost. The border is up, the shelves are up, the wall decorations are up. All I need to go out and get is a curtain rod, put up the valance, vacuum the floor and wash the rest of the things we got and then I think the baby’s room will be done! Hubs and I went out and bought the pack n play and a Boppy so we are now ready for baby to come home, since the baby has someplace to sleep lol. We plan on having the baby sleep in our room for the first 3 months or so and then put the baby in the crib, but the pack n play looks adorable. I didn’t know that it had a vibration motor that goes under the mattress. The changing table folds over to save space… its perfect! Now all we need is a baby haha. 

I’m almost 36 weeks pregnant. I can’t believe it. After all that waiting and worrying while TTC, after all the morning sickness in the first trimester…. here we are… almost at the end, almost with our first beautiful little baby in our arms. I can’t wait! I’m so excited and the more baby things we buy the more impatient I am to have the baby. I am a little nervous about the labor aspect of it. I’m still not planning on taking any pain meds, no epidural so I’m hoping that labor happens naturally because I know that if I have to be induced that the pain will be worse and I don’t know if I would be able to cope with that. So I’m hoping that I go into labor in the next 2-3 weeks on my own. I have no control over it, but that is what I’m hoping for.

The little nudger has the hiccups right now lol. I’m sitting here watching my tummy twitch over and over lol. I know that I will miss being pregnant, but I am so ready to have my body back lol. 

I also went by the gym so once my body heals after labor I can start working out. I want to get a plan that I stick with and between yoga, belly dancing and cardio/weight training at the gym I know that I can get back into shape again, if not in better shape then I was when I started. I also need to get on myself for the things that I eat. I know that I need to eat better, especially since I plan on breastfeeding, which is another thing that I worry about. I’m hoping that breastfeeding works out. Besides the fact that its better for me and better for the baby its also cheaper not to use formula. So I’m hoping that breastfeeding works out ok because I know so many friends that have had problems. 

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There are so many things that are about to happen, my life is about to change for the better once again. I’m so lucky. I have an amazing husband, I’ve had a healthy pregnancy so far and hopefully it keeps on that way til the end… I keep thinking about it. The other day hubby and I were laying in bed, the sun was shining in the window and hubby turned over in bed, wrapped his arm around me, pulled me close to him, sighed and went back to sleep and it was so perfect, lying there with the baby kicking in my belly and hubby snuggled up behind me. I love my life. 

… don’t be afraid, sometimes they come true! … music is my life