on the clock

 

Well I knew this was coming but hubby confirmed it for sure and now it is official…. we are on the deployment clock.

As of right now it looks like hubby is going to be deploying for 9 months leaving in January and going to the place that I didn’t want him to go…. Iraq. Originally we were looking at a 6 month deployment with him leaving in October and going to the Phillipines. It has its positives and negatives. Positives: We have longer together until he deploys, he will be home for the big holidays and the little nudger’s first Christmas, he will have more time with the baby, we will have more money coming in… negatives: its Iraq, its a longer deployment, he will miss our 2nd wedding anni and the baby’s first birthday. All in all I’m happy about it. It sucks that he is deploying, but I knew that he wouldn’t get out of them forever. He wasn’t going to tell me originally because he didn’t want me to be upset. Honestly I’m ok with it… the only thing that worries me is that its Iraq. The thought of him going to Iraq terrifies me. Though it isn’t like I haven’t been through an Iraq deployment before. Rob was in Iraq and he had a million issues with getting hurt so I have been through a bad deployment. But this is different, this will be my husband, the father of my child…. and I know that I am going to be more worried then ever before.

Thankfully I have some really great friends here so that helps a lot, I know that I will have people to turn to to help pass the time and it isn’t a year, though there won’t be any R&R for us, but he would leave some time in January and come home some time in late September or early October. I would spend atleast 2 weeks in Jersey for Easter and during some point in the summer to help pass the time and with him deploying I will def be going back to school. That will help pass the time too, not to mention having the baby. I know that he and I can get through this and I’m ready. It will be weird not having him home, but once I find my routine I will do ok.

In other news… I had another OB appt today. Little one is still head down, measuring great and the heartbeat is strong.

My sister and her boyfriend will be down here tomorrow. They are going to spend a week with us.

I guess thats about it.

… don’t be afraid, sometimes they come true! … music is my life