not looking forward to tomorrow

 Well the time has come. Chris leaves tomorrow for a week for Florida for training. I think I have been doing a good job of holding everything together. I know that a week isn’t long but I also know that when I go through this week its going to just drive home exactly how horrible its going to be when he deploys. 9 long months without him…. I don’t even like thinking about it, let alone look down at my ticker and see that in 8 months he is going to be leaving here.

Sure we will get a lot more money when he leaves but I would give up all that money and then some if I could just have him stay home.

*sigh*

Chris had a pretty bad nose bleed last night. He didn’t wake up from it and now there is a big stain on the sheets. Yay…. more laundry lol…. oh wait… I hate doing laundry.

We are also doing date night tonight since he leaves early tomorrow morning. Chris bought tickets to a 3-D showing of Tim Burton’s the Nightmare Before Christmas. I’m so excited about seeing it! We are going to the Olive Garden for dinner and then to the movie. I’m trying to think of things to do while he is gone…. not sure what I have come up with so far. I thought about driving to Raleigh to do some shopping but I don’t know if I want to waste that much gas. I thought about reading the whole Twilight series again or maybe going to the zoo.

Monday I am going to the DMV and I am not looking forward to it at all but atleast my car will be registered and we will be back to a 2 car family. Then I won’t be stuck in the house during the day, because I feel bad asking Chris for the car sometimes and leaving him stuck at work and waiting for me to come pick him up. This way I can run errands and do things for the house without having to wait for him to get home.

I still don’t have a job yet…. and I am starting to get tired of looking.

Chris and I decided that if we aren’t pregnant by Christmas that we are def going to the dr. to get looked at. I’m hoping that if there is something wrong that its something treatable because I know that there is always the option for adoption, but that just isn’t that same as having a child of our own or getting to carry a baby.

I guess we are going to just have to wait and see what happens over the next couple of months.

I am just tired of always waiting for things.

… don’t be afraid, sometimes they come true! … music is my life