my new years

My original plan was to go to a club with Geoff, but as usual. . .  the plan never happened.

What happened instead was better.

I spent my New Years with some friends watching a movie and having a few drinks. Geoff and I got to watch the ball drop and he kissed me right as 2006 rang in. He looked into my eyes and told me that he loved me and was so happy that he got to spend the end of 2005 with me and was looking forward to spending 2006 with me. These past couple days have been an emotional roller coaster for me. Even Geoff and I have had some deep, tearful conversations. I am looking forward to 2006. I hope that I get more accomplished this year. I am full of determination to get through school, find a better job and move out. I am looking forward to continuing my relationship with Geoff. The more time I spend with him the more I know that he is so right for me and I am so in love with him. I know that we are going to struggle now, but it is worth all the fighting and struggling to get ahead as long as I get to do all of it with him.

I can’t believe that it has only been 2 months this Thursday. . . somehow. . . I think with everything that we have been through already it seems that we have been together longer. But I have never felt this happy before and I know that some people think that I am rushing, and maybe I am, but I have decided to follow my heart and so far my heart has made me happy.

It was evident to me last night. Geoff was sleeping in bed with me. He had a couple drinks and when he drinks he get tired so we came back to my house and put on a DVD and snuggled in bed together. He fell asleep almost right away. He was so adorable. . . and I wasn’t tired at all so I started talking to him in his ear for a while. Every once in a while this smile would creep across his face. I started watching the movie and Geoff turns over and faces me, but his eyes are still closed. He kisses my cheeck and tells me that I am the most perfect woman that he has ever met and that he loves me with all his heart and never wants to be without me. He wraps his arms around me and pulls me tight against him. . . he sighs and smiles and is the silent again. I love him so much. . . and this New Years has been so perfect. I couldn’t have asked for more romance, more happiness, more love then what I shared with Geoff last night. If I am thankful for anything this 2005. . . it is for Geoff and OD.