memorial day weekend blues

Wow… it has been forever since I have been on to write anything. OD withdrawl i think. So much has been going on and nothing at the same time. I haven’t gotten a phone call from Rob in almost 2 weeks now. I hate that he never gets the time to talk on the phone. I miss him.

Memorial Day weekend actually wasn’t that bad. I cooked for one of the days with Rebecca… we went to the store together with Chris and then she and I cooked… sishkabobs, hambugers, chicken, and macaroni salad. It was nice to do some family stuff and not have any fighting. My father has finally stopped calling me a slut behind my back because I have been hanging out with Chris. He seemed to think that things were going on between him and me. UGH!!!

I got a letter from Rob on Saturday. He sent me a card and a little letter too. It was so nice to get that from him. I love getting mail from him… I miss him so much and watching everyone walk around with flags and red, white and blue didn’t really help. Thankfully Rob is doing good. He said that they have been going on and getting shot at but no one has been hurt although one guy got hit in the helmet, but it went through the side and didn’t hit him at all. He goes out all the time and that worries me, but he says that he is "enjoying" it and likes that he is busy so I guess I won’t complain. I guess I just wish that he had more time to talk to me on the phone or write me. He never write long letters because he doesn’t have the time. Not that I am really complaining, I mean, anything is better then nothing, but I just wish we could talk more. And even if we do get to talk on the phone it is usually only 10 min conversations and things just can’t be said in that short time. I have so much that I want to tell him and he has things that he wants to tell me, but you can’t really get into a serious conversation in 10 min.

He also isn’t getting r&r in August anymore, it has now been pushed back to November. *screams at top of lungs* I just want to see him! I mean I guess it is better that he has r&r in November (if that is even true) because then it wouldn’t be that much longer until he is home and I get to spend 30 perfect days with him, but it just seems like that is forever away. I can’t believe that it has been 53 days already, but then again it hasn’t even been 2 months yet. I guess it is the time going to slowly that is frustrating. You would think that I would be so happy that 53 days are done, but when you really look at it… thats 53 days out of about 550 days! There is just so much longer to go and I miss him and want him home now. Maybe it would be easier if he and I got to talk more. I know that he wishes that he could…. I wish for the same thing.

I hope that I get a call from him soon!

I am just so stressed out with everything that is going on. I have finally started sleeping again, but I always wake up tired so I might as well not even sleep. It would feel about the same.

In a way I just want to summer to go by quickly so that November will be closer. I don’t even care about my birthday in August… woopdee I will be 23… old and nothing accomplished. I feel like I am falling behind on my life’s plan… which is frustrating in of itself. I just wish that this deployment would end so I could start my life…

Bring the troops home safe and soon!

I love Rob forever and always