me the hopeless romantic

I haven’t really written anything in a while, but there is a good reason behind why… Chris and I got into it again, and since then I have felt hollow and empty. I haven’t really gotten up the courage to really talk about it, but I will just leave it at more of the same shit that has already been said.

I keeps pushing me away and I keep trying to get him to open up and talk to me. I did get something out of him Sunday morning… we were both crying but I saw the look in his eyes. It only lasted a second or two but the old Chris came through… I saw how in love with me he is in his eyes, and he is trying to hide it from me. He is scared to trust in me and doesn’t feel comfortable around me…. but I saw it in there. And me talking to him brought it out… so I know that I can help him. Even though he tells me that I can’t I know that I can.

I know it……