love is powerful

It seems like it has been a while since I wrote last. It has been a busy week to say the least. Chris became so sick Tuesday night. I had noticed that we wasn’t eating like he usually did, and then he was in visible discomfort come Tuesday night. We go to bed and everything goes down hill from there. I have never seen someone in so much pain before. I felt awful for him. He was curled in a ball, writhing in agony. It was terrifying. He was in tears, he couldn’t walk, he could barely stand… it was awful. He got almost no sleep all night and the morning was just as awful. He finally get some real sleep around 7am and slept til 1pm. He woke up and felt a bit better but thankfully his boss was able to comvince him to go to the dr. We spent about an hour at the clinic and 3 scripts, 2 blood draws and a appt for an upper GI he was home and on quarters for Wednesday. He was walking around very slowly but we ran some errands and got some real sleep. It was so scary…. I don’t think that I have ever been so worried about someone ever. It brought tears to my eyes to see Chris like that.

He is still not 100% but he is so much better now and I am just thankful that he is.

Its almost amazing how much my life has changed. I have been here for almost a month and married for almost a month and its almost like I am living a new life. All the fears and the worries and the doubts that I have had over my life seemed to have vanished. Chris makes me happier then I have ever been in my whole life and everything is just amazing. I really have no other way to describe it. I have never been with someone who listens to me, who values what I say and what I think, who is sweet and romantic with me, who makes me laugh and involves in all almost every aspect of his life as I do with my own life for him, its amazing. We are total equals in this marriage and though I still feel like I should get a job soon, we are in this together. I don’t think that I could have ever asked for a better husband and now that I am with him I know I won’t have to worry about that anyway.

… don’t be afraid, sometimes they come true! … music is my life