lagging & dragging

*sigh*

I miss Chris like crazy. Its so hard being away from the one that you love. I’m sure that all my readers are going to get sick of reading about how much I miss Chris over the next 7 weeks. Too bad… my diary….. so I miss Chris so much…. so much that it hurts sometimes. I know that once May is finally over I am going to be freaking out with excitement!

Work is really starting to drain on me. I work all week long at 2 jobs and yet I still never have any money to do anything with other then pay people for things. I would love to go out and get some summer clothes but I just can’t afford it, I have a feeling that I am going to die in North Carolina summer if I don’t get some summer clothes lol. Oh well… I am always the one to go without so I will continue to do so. I was just looking at my list of all the stuff that I have to get done and lets see, I can only cross one thing off that list. I am always so drained when I come home from work. I always end up sitting at my computer and I never get anything done. Though tonight I may have found the moving truck that we are going to go with. I don’t know yet, but I have a feeling that its the cheapest we are going to find.

I really need to start getting stuff done. UGH… I don’t know what is keeping me from doing things. I know that what ever it is comes from something in my head, I just can’t seem to pinpoint what it is. I just wish that was June 21 already. That would be 6 months for Chris and I!!! I am so excited about that. We just have to get there. I know that we will but time is just going by so slow. I saw Chris about 3 days ago and it already feels like forever since I’ve seen him. I hope that May flys by but I have a feeling that its going to drag.

… don’t be afraid, sometimes they come true! … music is my life