just a beautiful disaster

So my weekend is over… didn’t get much done. Didn’t really sleep at all…. didn’t really eat at all….

My windshield got hit by a rock and is now cracked. I got some homework done, but still have a lot to do. I bought guppies with money that I didn’t have, but when I look at them swimming around it makes me smile. I didn’t really hear anything from Rob, tried to talk to Amanda and that got me nowhere. I stayed away from my father and didn’t get into a confrontation. I did get the piece that I needed for my desk. I did get some much needed time to myself. I did start to study and began thinking about things that I need to get done.

I have tried not to think or worry about the future, but I am a planner so that isn’t as easy as one might think. I hate not knowing where I am headed. My room is still a mess since I didn’t really work on it at all. My phone is still off and I still have atleast 2 more weeks before I can turn it back on and its driving me insane.

My father is home for the week so I don’t know how well hiding from him will work. I think I will be spending a lot of time at the library this coming week.

Yeah… there isn’t really anything else to say…. I don’t really feel better at all, but at the same time I don’t feel worse. I made a really hard promise for me to keep to a friend, and I am going to do all that I can to keep it. This Thursday I don’t have work so I am going to catch up on some much needed work and make a schedule for myself so I can really get focused this semester.

I guess that is about it…. short random ramblings….. heh