just 5 days away

The new semester of Kindermusik started today. Miss Katie, the Kindermusik teacher, is pregnant with baby #2! I’m so excited for her but it’s kinda sad because her husband is going to be deploying in the beginning of 2011.

Nicholai is acting so off today. I woke him up a little after 8 because we had to get ready since we had Kindermusik this morning. He nursed but instead of getting down and playing with his toys like he normally does he just stood by me while I put my makeup on. He wanted me to carry him all over, he didn’t baby babble like he normally does all the time. He just followed me around and every once in a while he would cry for no apparent reason. I took his temp but it was 98.6. I thought maybe he was going round 2 with the stomach virus because he didn’t want any mum-mums or toast to eat like he normally does but he didn’t get sick so I figured we would just try going to Kindermusik.

We get there and he just sits on my lap. He doesn’t run all around the place like he normally does. He even lays his head down on me on the quiet songs. He never does that. After he slept the whole way to the store and was quiet in the cart as I got what I needed. He wasn’t babbling or anything.

We come home and I managed to get some cereal in him and maybe a grape or 2, of which he normally eats about 15, and then let him down to play. But he would only play if I started playing with his toys first.

I figured ok…. maybe he is just tired…. so I put him down for his nap. About 30min into his nap he wakes up and sits up, something he never does, and just sat there. For 20min he just sat in his crib, didn’t move, didn’t stand up, didn’t play with his bear, didn’t mess with his blanket… he just sat there staring off into space. Then his heartbeat sound machine went off so he lay back down to nap longer. He has never acted this way before… and it worries me.

Everyone is saying it’s the weather because it has been cool, autumn type weather here and today is 88! So maybe the weather is just getting to him… I don’t know. Seeing him acto so lethargic and zombie like is worrying me.

His clothes that I ordered from Old Navy came in last night! AND his new Britax carseat is supposed to be in tomorrow! Ahhh I can’t wait for this carseat to get here. Haha I know that I’m a mommy cause I’m excited about a carseat lol.

Chris has been super busy with work and he hasn’t been sleeping well these past couple of days. I’m worried about him. I think he is starting to get stressed about the holidays coming up and that he won’t be home with us for them. I says that he is fine… but I don’t know. It will be nice when we can talk about things again… our conversations are all one sided because he can’t tell me about his day or things that are going on with him…. I feel left out of his life. But I know that it has to be that way while he is deployed. Just adds to my loneliness heh. It will be so nice to have real conversations with my husband again…. he is so quiet as I blab on about my day because if I don’t we won’t talk about anything because he can’t really say very much. Gah deployments are frustrating!