its almost time!!!!!

Well its about time that I take a look at the list again. Tomorrow is Wednesday… I am so glad that I made it to the middle of the week… it seemed to take forever. Chris flies in 3 days from now… 3 DAYS and I am so excited!!!! I can’t wait to see him, knowing that this time I won’t have to say goodbye to him. But it isn’t that I don’t have to say any goodbyes. This time I have to say goodbye to my family and my friends. My mum, my father, Allison, Rebecca, David and the great friends that I have here… Nina, Ashley and her darling baby Evan, Kersey, John, Sabrina… so many people that I am going to be saying goodbye to. Chris said that he knew I was giving up a lot moving down to NC with him. I guess I never really thought about it til he said that. Though in all honesty I don’t feel like I am giving up anything, I feel like I am growing up. This is the next logical step in life, growing up and seperating from family and starting my own life.

Yes… I am scared. Its a huge step and as close as I have come to it so many times before I have never been this close… I have never been 5 days away, but I have also never been more happy in my whole life. I have never felt more secure. I feel strong, I feel in control and though I have been having lapses into my frailness of the problems that I have dealt with in my life I still feel like this is something I can handle and something that I can deal with. Looking back on my life, on past entries, I don’t think that I could have handled this before, but 2007 was a year of major internal growth and I am so much more confident in myself and in my future then I have ever been. And that was what I was missing in my life before, confidence. I thought of myself as this weak, fragile, disaster of a girl and I can almost see the strong adult woman that I think I was destined to become.

Its strange to look back on all the mistakes and failures that I made and yet here I find myself with the most amazing man, with friends that I hope stay in my life forever, a closer bond with my family and a future life that is looking better then I ever dreamed that it could be. Despite all the bad things that I did I must have done something right to deserve what I have. Karma is handing me things that I never thought I would recieve and I am grateful. Honestly and humbly grateful. I hope that my life continues down the road that it has been and I know that most of that is in my hands but these hands of mine are more capable then they have ever been and when those hands become slippery and I think that I can’t hold on I have Chris and my friends and my family to help me.

And that means more to me then anything.

And I see that I have totally meandered from the list so once again lets get back to that….

 

 

1. Find someone to move my crap to North Carolina
2. Get Aurora fixed (not happening before the move)
3. Get Aurora and Riku caught up at the vet and get a copy of their records to take with me
4. Cancel my cell phone
5. Go through all my old clothes, keep what I want, sell what I can to Plato’s Closet, goodwill the rest
6. Go through everything in my closet and storage what needs it and pack the rest
7. Change my car over into my name
8. Apply to UNC at Pembroke
9. Take the Praxis (not worrying about that now)
10. Tell WCN when my last day will be
11. Pay off all my outrageous medical bills (still going)
12. Attempt to pay off the laptop (still going)
13. Pack… pack… pack (almost done)
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or: #000000″ color=”#3366ff”>Pay off my Target card (still going)

Go to Chris’s Army Formal

Go ice skating with my family before I leave

Clean out my car

Be done packing by the time Chris gets here

Get a good picture of my family to take with me

Enjoy some good sibling time before I leave (in the process)

Get boxes to pack stuff for the move

 

 Looking good… but I only have 5 days left to get it all done lol.

 

 

 

 

… don’t be afraid, sometimes they come true! … music is my life