I miss you like…..

Well today has been an ok day I guess. I picked up my extra credit for Chem and handed in my term paper for 10 extra points. YAY!

I am working on my army "project"and for anyone that is interested in knowing what it is please note me about it.

Rob’s grammum called me today. I didn’t recognize the number and I had a heart attack when I first looked at it, but I finally got a grip and answered. And she said, "Hi this is Rob’s grammom…. I was just wondering if you had heard from Rob?"

*huge sigh of relief*

She sounds nice. It is still weird to be talking to him family when I don’t really know them at all and Rob isn’t around. I don’t mind it at all… in fact I am glad that we talk, but I am still not used to it. It just makes me think to our future so much more. Not that I mind that either… it is thinking of that that keeps me going. I still have my nightmares and my dreams. I guess the nights are starting to come easier. I fell asleep after work today and had a dream about Rob… that he was home on r&r and sleeping over my house. We were lying in my bed and he was running his fingers through my hair and kissing me so gently the way he always does. He told me that he had missed me so much and we both ended up crying and holding each other. We looked into each others eyes and just knew how perfect we were. And then I woke up… I rolled over to make sure that it was just a dream and Rob wasn’t actually in my bed. He wasn’t. Just a dream….

Its funny the little things that you miss…. the way that he slips his tongue in between his teeth when he is really happy, the way that he smiles whenever I look at him (see Tam, I told you that I had my list too lol), the way that he kisses me so gently and holds me so close and so tight, the way he pulls me close at night, his laugh, his voice, his gorgeous blue eyes…. yeah… I have to stop because I could just keep going.

But… 3 weeks tomorrow. Almost 1 month down! I think once the months start ticking away that it will be better for me. I have less and less horrible days… more and more bad times now rather then bad days. So I guess I am dealing better and better. If it wasn’t for the ladies that I met here and some of the military gf/finace/wife groups on facebook I think it would have been a lot harder. And as usual… my favs here have helped me so much!

The weekend is almost here again… so much stuff to do. I have to find some money from somewhere cause I think it will be hard to put gas in my car with negative $35 in the bank! Yeah… that won’t work. I have my final on Saturday morning at 9am! 3 finals to study for…. a oral presentation…

What other random things do I have going on…

I have almost stopped drinking soda and am now drinking water and juice…. I ate vegetables for dinner… and I think that I am going to run tonight, but I might just do exercises in my room. The summer is coming faster then I thought and my bikini body is non-existent. Grrr… winter frump.

2 more weeks and the semester is over….

Ok… I am out of things to write for now.

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